Sunday, December 21, 2014

Email from our Dominant

This is the email he sent us today:

"I found this and want to know your thoughts:

'Interracial Bill Of Rights
Interracial Bill Of Rights (Complete)

Section A.
Interracial Bill Of Rights (As they apply to the SUPERIOR Black man.)
1. You are superior to white women and especially to white men. Knowing this should not be a license to disrespect the basic human rights of white people and you should not hold your superiority against them. They should be treated with basic human respect and dignity just as you expect to be treated, even though you are CLEARLY superior in most ways in general.
2. You have a GOD GIVEN ABSOLUTE RIGHT to fuck white people. White women were made primarily for the purpose of being the sexual slaves of the black man, and it is also your right to use white men sexually as you see fit. As human beings they have the right to say no and you should never force yourself sexually on anyone. Even though it is your right to have any kind of sex you desire with any white person so long as it is consensual you should nonetheless be grateful for their service to you and reward them with the sexual satisfaction that ONLY black men can provide them. You are to educate those white people, male and female, who have yet to understand life's correct order, making it clear to the white husband that his rights are secondary to those of the superior black male.
3. No white person has ANY right to request that you use a condom. As a black man you should ONLY use a condom if YOU choose to and ideally should never do so. If sexually transmitted disease is an issue a physician should be consulted instead of condom use. White people are your natural cum dumps and you should always be free to ejaculate freely inside any white person’s orifice.
4. You have the ABSOLUTE GOD GIVEN RIGHT to fuck ANY white man’s wife and to do so before him, without his permission or approval. Consent should be given by the woman, but if the husband takes issue with you having sex with his wife, then it is well within your rights to fuck her behind his back. Be cautious though that any man can become jealous and enraged and be dangerous so handle your clandestine affairs with married white women with extreme caution.
5. Your penis is the ultimate object of worship for the white woman. If you choose to, it should be equally worshiped by the white man. You should always give any attractive white woman the pleasure of your penis if it is possible and practical and if you desire her. Keep in mind, that ALL white women desire black penis even though some do not admit it even to themselves. You truly ARE GOD’S GIFT TO THE WHITE WOMAN! Use this power wisely. The proper order of using your black penis is to give it to the most beautiful and physically attractive white women first, married or single. Blond, attractive white wives should be given the ultimate priority. Next, the average looking white women should be considered. All other white women come last, as they have the least chance of bearing attractive black children.
6. Sex with white people is primarily for YOUR satisfaction. You should ALWAYS have a spurting orgasm and their pleasure is completely irrelevant, BUT you ought to make every effort to please them if possible because they are deserving of a reward for pleasing you sexually.
7. It is your RIGHT to fuck white women up the ass at will, however you must have consent to do so, but her denial is no reason not to press the issue. Ideally she should respect your rightful ownership of all her orifices and submit them to you at your discretion. A white woman who refuses to take your penis up her ass is not the ideal woman, and while it is still desirable to fuck her, every effort should be made to convince her of the rightness of her submitting to anal sex with Black men. You must of course have the consent of any white man you choose to fuck, but it is your right to require him to perform any sexual act you desire as well.
8. Any and ALL white people should suck your dick at your request, although again consent is an issue. Be patient with them though and be prepared to instruct them on how to properly suck your dick to your satisfaction. Not all white people will be prepared to properly suck a Black man’s penis correctly, especially if it is excessively large. It is their duty to learn to deep throat your penis and they should be able to do it to some extent, but be tolerant and patient with them if they cannot. It is an ABSOLUTE REQUIREMENT that they swallow your cum and or allow you to cum on them in any fashion YOU choose.
9. Remember, your sexual satisfaction is the priority. Treat whites with the respect you wish to be treated with whenever possible, but remember they exist to please you sexually. Your pleasure and desires are always top priority. Superiority does not give you the right to disrespect the rights of other human beings. There is a place for us all.
These are some basic precepts for the black man. I write these with all due respect and admiration for blacks and hope you will enjoy them.
Section B.
Interracial Bill Of Rights (As they apply to ALL white woman)
1. Black men have the ABSOLUTE and inalienable right to have sex with you, any time, any where, and as often as they desire. You have the right as a human being to decline, but it is your natural duty to sexually satisfy the black man in any way possible. It is your duty to perfect the art of fellatio, and practice vaginal muscle control to please a black man's penis. It should be your PRIMARY purpose in life to sexually serve the superior Black man. You will be rewarded for your full and complete compliance in life's new order.
2. White men are always, ALWAYS, ALWAYS be second in life's order to black men. If you happen to be in love with a white man it is still your duty to always put the sexual needs of black men first. If you marry a white man it is especially important that you make yourself sexually available to black men. You may have sex with white men, but should do so only after the black man has gone first. If it is possible, you should avoid sex with white men altogether, instead opting to masturbate them in whatever way you can, so their seed will fall upon the ground. If a superior Black man should wish to have his dick sucked by your white husband or boyfriend or even to fuck your husband or boyfriend in the ass, you should support this and encourage the white man in question to submit completely to the desires of the Black man. Black men, being the superior being, do have this right.
3. It is a Black man's god given right to intercourse white women bareback, whenever and where ever he desires. Black men should NEVER wear a condom during sex with a white woman (or man if that be the case). When protection from STDs is an issue it is always preferable to consult a physician to using condoms. Black men should always ejaculate inside of you, and if they do not their semen is not to be wasted but should be consumed orally. Black semen is to be considered an absolute treasure, the seed of life, and it should be your primary objective in life to partake and consume as much as is physically possible. You should treasure every drop and make sure none is wasted.
4. It is your god given DUTY to orally copulate ANY Black male who requests it at any time and any place if it is at all possible. It is also an ABSOLUTE MUST that you make every effort to swallow the ejaculate, unless he specifies that he would like to ejaculate on your body, in which case you should still lick up as much of his precious cum as you can. Oral sex is very low risk for STDs and should be practiced on black men as often as is possible. NEVER turn a black man away, as this is the ultimate sin for a white woman. Serve black men and serve them well, and you will be treated with desire, which should be your ultimate objective in life. Black men, on the other hand, are not bound to respect white women. They are here to use you for their pleasure, and you are on this earth to serve them completely and endlessly, without moral or religious reservations.
5. If it is at all possible, no form of contraception should ever be used for sex with black men. It is a white woman’s natural duty to conceive and bear black children as often as is possible. Your children should be raised to understand the superiority of the black man.
6. When bearing and raising white children you should raise them to understand their place beneath the Black man and to understand their god given duty to sexually serve the black men. Both white daughters and sons must be properly instructed in the art of pleasing black men, when such a time is deemed to be appropriate. You daughters should be thoroughly discouraged from sexual activity with white men at all costs. White sons should be taught to accommodate a black man's penis anally if it is possible, and to bring their wives and daughters into the serving of black men lifestyle. Your children must ultimately make their own choices and should be allowed to, but the importance of sexual service to the black male can not be over emphasized.
7. You SHOULD learn to submit to anal sex with a large black penis. If done properly this is a VERY enjoyable activity for both the Black man and the white woman. Ideally a Black penis should be allowed entry to any orifice of your body at any time the Black man desires. Again I must stress that condom use is ABSOLUTELY UNACCEPTABLE! It is a white woman's greatest gift to a black man to submit to an anal fucking and a great compliment to the white woman when a Black man ejaculates inside her anus. It has been said that once a white woman submits herself anally to the black man, she has experienced the ultimate physical deed of her life.
8. As a human being you deserve respect, but being desirable to black men is your purpose in life. You should never suffer abuse at the hands of any man or woman, even a superior Black man. You, as a white woman, were born with the primary purpose in life to be the sexual objective of the black man, and should submit to his sexual desires at all times, but this does not include any activity that is abusive or hurtful to you. The superior Black man will never mistreat the white woman except in the advancement of her sexual education and the endless sexual, physical, and emotional submissions that are required of her.
9. As a white woman, the ONLY path to TOTAL and COMPLETE sexual satisfaction is to serve the needs of the superior Black male. Black Females must be respected as well and are also above you in the grand scheme of things and this should never be forgotten.
10. When dressing or selecting clothing the Black man's arousal is of PARAMOUNT importance! Not all women have the figure for it, but if it is at all possible you MUST wear the sexiest clothing that is possible for the situation. You ideally should keep your legs and pussy completely and cleanly shaven and should always smell good for the benefit of the Black man. ALWAYS wear high heeled shoes and bared or stocking clad legs when you can, and skirts are always preferable. Braless and or nipples prominently displayed is advisable and strongly encouraged. Body language should ALWAYS indicate your sexual availability to ALL Black men. Panties should be avoided whenever possible and it is advisable for you to flash your tits and pussy to black men whenever you can, even when with your white husband in public or private, indicating your willingness, your desires and sexual availability.
11. Pornography, if you should choose to view it should ONLY depict Black males and white females having sex. White males having sex with white females on film is disgusting and should be avoided at all costs.
12. The Black man's penis is a thing to be WORSHIPED by the white woman (and white men if the black man should desire). Treat it with the utmost care and respect, and it will serve you very well. The proper position of worship for a white woman is on her knees, naked, caressing the black penis with her white hands, stimulating the Black man so he will want and need more and more sex.
These are the ways in which you can be the ideal white woman. Knowing you place is key, and keeping these basic rules memorized or available to you at all times is advisable.
Section C.
The Interracial Bill Of Rights. (As they apply to the white man)
This is the TRUTH about your place in this world as a white man. Regardless about all the BULLSHIT they teach you about all men being created equally, you must learn and obey these rules if you want to be an ideal white man who knows and respects his proper place in life.
1. Black men have an absolute and inalienable right to fuck white women. This means your wife, daughter, secret lust..... ANY and ALL white women. The white woman is a human being and has the right of choice but should be taught early that it is her god given duty to excite, serve, and satisfy black men sexually above all other things. You should teach your wife, and or daughters and even sons that they are first and foremost the physical sexual objects of the black man, and have a duty to perform any and all sexual acts a black man requests of them whenever and where ever they are indicated. There are no exceptions to this rule, and their morals and religious views should be adjusted through education so they have no guilt when they submit to a black man's needs. White women were put on this earth to serve black men, completely and endlessly, and this needs to be understood without exception.
2. The black man has the absolute and inalienable right to fuck YOU, the white man, any time and way that he chooses. Of course not all black men will desire this and you should never risk offending him by offering. You as a white man must perfect the art of sucking cock, deep throating, and pleasuring a black man's penis with your ass. "No" is not a word you should EVER use regarding a black man's request for sex, and you must perform any act he requires of you regardless of how you feel about it personally. You should also bring him your wife anytime he requests further desires and sexual needs.
3. A black man's seed is NEVER to be wasted. If a black man cums it should be inside of white people’s orifices. In a white vagina, anus or mouth, and the semen should remain there or be swallowed as is the case. If any spills it should be licked up and if the black man decides to cum on any part of a white person’s anatomy the semen should ultimately be eaten by the white person.
4. As a white man, when you marry a white woman it is your god given duty to work to educate her and make her available to black men so she can serve their sexual needs. Black men ALWAYS have priority sexually and are ALWAYS the alpha male. You should discourage your wife from sex with white men, including yourself. If you have sex at all with your wife it should be limited to masturbation, unless SHE insists otherwise, and then sex should be ONLY with the full permission of her black lover(s), and ONLY after they have had her first. As you are still a man with male desires it is understandable that it may be difficult to comply with this rule if there is any way around it, but a diligent effort must be made. If it is possible the white man should ideally learn to derive his sexual satisfaction solely from watching black men indulge their white wives, girlfriends or daughters, and or, by sucking black men’s dicks and being fucked in their asses by black men.
5. ALL human beings deserve respect and while white men must accept that they are inferior to black men they should not be expected to allow themselves to be actually abused by anyone.
6. Pornography depicting acts of sex and love between black men and white women and black men and white men are the proper fare for masturbation for the white man. Pornography depicting white men fucking white women is ugly, perverse, profane and should NEVER be possessed or viewed by white men or women. Such material should be destroyed.
7. The black penis is to be worshiped above all things. It is the most revered object of humankind and should be treated as such. It is the very image of perfection. Dildos and likenesses of penises should always be black, and represent the black male’s superior genitalia.
8. Most important to the white man is that you have NO sexual rights whatsoever except when granted by a black male and secondarily by a white female. You should always keep your filthy little white penis hidden from view unless requested to do otherwise by a black man or white woman. In an ideal world your only real purposes in life are to support the Black lovers of your white wives, girl friends and daughters, serve as a "bitchboy" to suck and be fucked by black men when it amuses them to do so, and produce white daughters for the black man's pleasure.
There are many more things that could be said on the subject, but these are some basic simple rules for the white man to live by. Keep a copy of these in your wallet or on your person at all times and obey them to the fullest of your ability.'

Well, I never thought I would receive something like this in real life.  I am very interested in your thoughts.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Out of town for work...He goes to Syd...at our house!

He always has mentioned that he wanted to be with her in our house. I always imagined it would be the three of us. But, i received a text from Syd saying he texted her and was coming over to our house. it was so odd because almost instantly i felt myself get that pit in my stomach but my little dick also got very hard at the same time.

He was coming to our house around 9:00 am after all the kids were off to school. i was half expecting a text or call or something but i heard nothing until about 1:00 pm. It was so hard for me not to text or call them. My mind was racing with what they were doing. Here is what i envisioned:


At 1:00 pm, i finally received a picture from him via text with Syd on her knees in our kitchen with one hand holding his massive cock showing her wedding ring and her other hand holding a sign with her written words on it, "Wish you were here."

It definitely was one of those events i knew took this all to new level for us.

i thought i'd share some pics i looked at while they were together and i was in my hotel room.

i hope you like them :)
















Thursday, October 23, 2014

I'm Going to See My Boyfriend - Pt. II

Syd came home from Ryan's and looked so happy. She came right up to me in the family room and gave me the most passionate of kisses. She smiled and just said, "Thank you! You are the greatest!" i was immediately hard thinking in my mind that she was thanking me for being so understanding of her having a boyfriend and also making her feel so good about it.

Syd said they had a great evening of sex and conversation. She likes that with him it is not all about sex, she loves the intimacy. Syd said Ryan was incredibly turned on that this hot sexy wife was with him and her husband was home taking care of the kids. He was so turned on she said he came more quickly than usual.  Usually he can go for what seems like hours.

Syd said he felt incredible and left me a gift in her. She wanted to go straight to our bedroom. i couldn't wait to get to our bedroom and hear all the details so i eagerly ascended the stairs.

She told me to get into bed, stay clothed. Her body looked incredible, so sexy, so toned. i cuddled into her arms and we kissed and it felt so good to feel her warm wet lips and tongue. The thought obviously crossed my mind that she was moments ago sucking her boyfriend's cock with the same lips and tongue.

She reached down and began to play with my little penis asking me questions. 

"Do you like knowing your wife was with her black boyfriend tonight?"

"Do you like knowing his big cock was inside me and made me feel so warm inside."

"Did you like being home with the kids knowing your wife was being fucked by her boyfriend?"

"Do you know he left you a gift inside me?"

She felt my hardness and said, "Yes, of course you do, you are such a good boy."

She then instructed me, "Now reach down and put your fingers inside me."

i could feel her wetness and knew immediately it was a mixture of her juices and his cum.  After rubbing her G spot, she asked me, "Do you know what you're feeling?"

i knew she was making me say it. "Yes, i feel his cum inside you."

She responded, "Good, now pull your fingers out and taste him."

i did and began licking my fingers.  i don’t think i was being eager enough for her and she said, "Suck your fingers."  She said it in a tone that left no question that i better suck them with intensity. i did, and honestly, was glad for her direction because it felt so good to listen to her and to be licking his cum and her juices.

i then put my fingers back inside her and began to deeply stroke her and give her a number of orgasms.  All the while, she was telling me what a good little boy i was. Every time she said that, it's amazing how my mind focuses on "little" and that somehow makes me so so hard.

She then pushed my head to her pussy and said, "Suck all of his cum out of me."  i started to lick and she said, "Suck!"  So, i began sucking and she seemed very pleased.  The more i sucked, the more pleased she was. She wanted me to suck all of his cum out and swallow her black boyfriend's seed. Once she felt i had cleaned her sufficiently, she pulled me up to her and kissed me deeply and showered me with praise.

She then instructed me to take off my clothes. We cuddled together and she whispered in my ear. Saying what a good boy i was giving her the orgasms and how good i was at it. i was proud to have done that and to be that for her. She felt my hardness and said' "Don't even think about going inside me."

As you can imagine, i was hoping beyond hope that i would be allowed.

She asked me, "Did you enjoy sucking my boyfriend's cum out of me?"  i answered in a whispered voice, "Yes."

She then told me to fuck her. i knew from past experience to immediately get in position and don't ask questions.  i definitively didn't want her to change her mind and i was sure i heard her correctly.

i got on top of her and entered her quickly and she felt so warm, so inviting. Once inside, my first thought was thinking of Ryan being inside her just about an hour ago and that my little penis must not feel as good. In some ways, i feel that is my issue, because she did say i felt good inside her.

And even though i know it felt good because she wouldn't lie, she doesn’t have to, i knew i wasn't able to bring her to shattering orgasms like he does.

i was so thankful to be inside her. It has been a while since we have had sex - intercourse. i was ready to shoot in no time at all so i knew i had to slow down. As i slowed the pace, she said, "Are you ready to cum already? You know you're not allowed to, right?"  She also said something about her boyfriend lasting a lot longer than me. i knew it was true.

i quickened the pace and slowed as needed so that i didn't cum. She then asked me if i liked sucking his cum out of her pussy again.  i replied affirmatively.  She then told me to repeat, "i love sucking his cum out of your pussy" on every stroke.

So, i began saying in unison to thrusting inside her, "i love sucking his cum out of your pussy."

"i love sucking his cum out of your pussy."

"i love sucking his cum out of your pussy."

"i love sucking his cum out of your pussy."

"i love sucking his cum out of your pussy."

Over and over again i repeated it. And you have to know, as i am saying it, i know the psychological affect a phrase like this has. And, i also knew it was making me want to cum more speedily.

Finally, she said as i was repeating the phrase, "Come inside me." i was in ecstasy as i came inside her all the while repeating, "i love sucking his cum out of your pussy."

This is my life now.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

"I am going to see my boyfriend."

"I am going to see my boyfriend."  This is what Syd told me as i got home tonight from work.  She made a great dinner for all of us and then told everyone she was going shopping.  She looked so sexy in her jogging outfit.  And, then she kissed me goodbye.

It felt so arousing to have this happen.  i mean, it was a fantasy come true.  Guys dreamof this happening to them and this is my reality.

So so hot.  I am so happy for her.

Honestly, i feel a little inadequate knowing she needed him sexually tonight.  Yet, that inadequacy feels so sweet.  Yes, a little bitter, but mostly sweet.

i guess that is the life of a cuckold.  i still can't believe i am one.

He just texted me that he left a gift inside his gf for me.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Her Boyfriend Cooks...too!

Ryan called me earlier in the week and wanted to surprise Syd with a "night out" for dinner at his place.  He was going to make dinner and wanted to know some of her favorite things as well as anything she didn't like.

This reminds me of why she likes him so much and his thoughtfulness in this way only amplifies his thoughtfulness as her lover.

Syd knew we were going out with Ryan but didn't know any other details.  She went shopping and was very excited to show off the things she bought to show off for her boyfriend.  There were plenty of bags in our bedroom so i could only guess she bought more sexy clothes than for just one evening.

Regarding her dress, i am not sure if i have mentioned it before, but even if i did it bears repeating.  The outfits she now wears are all sexy.  Even if she is just going to the grocery store, she is sexy.  Before, she never wore heels.  Now she wouldn't dream of anything less than 3-5" heels.

Her blouses are always saying, lean in and see if you can see anything more.  Her pants are skin tight and skirts are always short.  If i wasn't married to her, i'd look at her and say, "Man, is she hot!"  And, i would also think, "i know she is a great fuck!"

Well, the day of our "date" came she was very excited to see him.  i truly enjoy seeing her excitement.  It is so unthreatening, which i am sure makes me appreciate it all the more.

She was dressed in a beautiful silky yellow dress and was very low cut.  The kind of dress she wouldn't even have considered a year ago.  Along with her dangling earrings and 5" heels, she looked stunning.  Her legs were spectacular and i wanted to lick them right then and there.  For me, there is nothing like a bare leg, so much better than stockings.

As we drove to Ryan's house, Syd held my hand and asked me how i felt.  i told her i felt terrific and thanked her for making me feel so comfortable.  Even thought i knew in an hour or so she'd be moaning and screaming with him inside her, i was happy that she was happy.  i really was and i really am.

When we got to his house she opened the door after giving a gentle knock and he was inside waiting for us.  She went so easily into his arms and he wrapped his muscular black arms around her and i thought to myself how hot it was to see his black hands against her white back.  This was real, no fantasy, no porn, just real live erotica. 

He kissed her on the lips as if they had been lovers for years and she had her hands around his neck so perfectly.  He then greeted me as well and asked us if we wanted any drinks.  He knew her favorite drink now, and asked her if she would like a martini.  She was impressed he knew that and soon we were all drinking a martini that he made and it all felt so comfortable.

i thought to myself, "i can't believe just how warm and relaxed we all are and yet if anyone else would see this, they just wouldn't understand."  i know it may sound weird to many of you, but i thought to myself how lucky we were to have found him, how blessed even.

He made us a fresh tuna pizza that was incredible.  It was worthy of some of the best restaurants.

He told us he had 4 courses.  Well, we never made it to the second course.

During the first course, she touched his hand on the table and leaned over and kissed her.  It was over from there.

He grabbed her around the neck and i watched her hand go to his crotch.  As she touched his crotch, she let out a moan.  It was the kind of moan that said, "Oh my god, I have been thinking about this all week!"

Before i knew it, he told her to unzip his pants and he had his hand on her head as she went down on him.  She was moaning and so was he saying how good she felt and "what a good slut you are."  He then asked her, "Whose slut are you?"  She stopped sucking for a second to answer, "Me."  He then pushed her back down on him and said, "Good girl."

i could see his massive cock glistening with her saliva and every so often you could hear her gag from his size.  More and more saliva came out as she gagged and it was incredibly hot to watch.

At that moment, i knew he was in total control.  We all knew he was in total control.

He grabbed her by the hair and pulled her to her feet and ripped her dress off her and there she was naked in her heel and he bent her over the dining room table and began to fuck her.  If you saw a picture of it, you'd masturbate to it!  It was better than any picture i'd ever seen...and i was living it!

He began fucking her so hard and she was moaning so loud.  He asked her whose pussy was it.  She quickly answered, "Yours!"

At that point i felt like he owned her.

He would look over at me and say, "This is what she needs.  This is what you can't give her."

Then he'd say to her, "You don't get this at home, do you?"  She quickly said, No, no I don't."

He loves telling her what a whore she is and what a slut she is, and she loves hearing it.

He was pulling her hair back which made her back arch to meet each powerful thrust from her lover.

Next i knew, i heard drops hitting the floor and i knew she was cumming and squirting.

Watching him thrust into her with his enormous cock is something to behold.  The look on her face is nothing but ecstasy.  He loves slapping her on her ass and her ass was beet red.  You could easily see the welts from his hand.  Not mean in any way, but definitely forceful, exerting his control.

And, when he looks me in the eye to tell me i can't do the same things to her it is so humiliating yet it is such a turn on.  i can't really explain it and don't understand how it happens, but it does.  It makes me feel a pit in my stomach but my dick gets so hard.

Other than him looking over and saying those things to me, it was if i wasn't even in the room.  He clearly had her in a different world.

He then pulled her hair and just was pumping into her until she came again screaming all the way.

As soon as she came again he pulled her to follow him upstairs and in a flash they were up in his bedroom and I was sitting at the dining room table.  i didn't know if i should go upstairs, i mean, i wanted to badly of course, but i wasn't sure he wanted me to.  i thought he would have told me to follow if he wanted me to.  Then i heard the noises and i just had to see it for myself.

When i walked into his bedroom, she was in the edge of the bed with her legs over his shoulders as he was standing there fucking her.  Her hands were stroking his arms telling him how good he felt inside her and how good he made her feel.  She even had some tears in her eyes as she reached for my hand and squeezed it which i knew meant, "I love you."

i sat near the edge of the bed mesmerized by the sight of Ryan fucking Syd and how beautiful they looked together.  There was now chemistry between them that wasn't there when this all began.

The entire night I sat there and watched them fuck…in many positions, in all holes.  She came so so many times his bed was soaking.  He came 2 or 3 times and to watch him orgasm is to see a guy scream and thrust uncontrollably with such passion and power - it is intense.

At the end of the night, they looked over at me and it was like they just realized I was there.  He looked at me and said, "Go ahead, pull your little dick out and jack off, you deserve it."

i did and it felt incredible.  They watched me as they lay together side by side and made some comment about my size.


i went to the bathroom after i came and thought the evening was closing.  Then, i could hear her moaning again and he was fucking her again, i wasn't surprised.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Our First Anniversary of Wife-Led Marriage & Cuckoldry

Ryan wanted to see "his girlfriend" so we set up an evening together.  We were going to meet on Friday night after work at a hotel then go to a restaurant then back to the hotel.

He set everything up and just told me where to be.  i told Syd nothing except that i was taking her out to dinner for our anniversary.   This was not only our 21st anniversary, it was also our first anniversary of our Wife Led Marriage as well as us leading a Cuckold Lifestyle.

Syd got started getting ready very early.  i wondered why but when i saw the result, i knew.  when i walked into our bedroom to catch a glimpse, she looked incredible.  Sex was oozing from every aspect of her.  She had on a white lacy dress which was very very short.  The dress also was very low cut and showed off her stunning tits.  She had long dangling earrings and a diamond necklace on accentuated with her 5" heels.  Her whole aura just shouted, "Fuck me!"

Clearly she has grown into her hotwife-ness so gracefully and enthusiastically.  i was so proud to be with her.

i suspected she might not be wearing panties and i reached to grad her dress and lifted it up slowly.  Sure enough this hot sexy mom was wearing no underwear.

Ryan had texted me to come to the room first for the key and i could make like i had to go into the hotel alone to register.  i did as instructed and knocked on the door to his room.  He opened it and smiled and handed me the key.  He said i was doing a great job and he couldn't wait to see "his girlfriend."

i can't tell you how utterly natural it was for me to go to the room, see "her boyfriend" and get the key so that i may bring her to him so that he could do anything he wanted with her.   And, know that she would love every minute of it.

Before a year ago, this was all distant fantasy for me and now i was living a cuckold's poignant reality.  My wife has a black boyfriend and he is her lover...for real.  Most of the time the thought arouses me but there are times when I think, "What have I done??!!"  And then i get a pit in my stomach.

Anyway, i went downstairs to get Syd who was still waiting in the car.  When she got out of the car, i had to stare and take in all there was in her.  Her sexiness keeps going to new heights.  Guys stare at her so much more than before.  And, her outfits are so much more revealing than before.  She would not consider wearing some of the shoes she used to wear "because they don't have a high enough heel."

We walked hand in hand through the parking lot and a few cars passed by and slowed down.  i know why they slowed down...no one could blame them!

She was smiling the whole way.  No more the timid house wife, she was in full hotwife mode and strutting for all to see.

When we got to the room, i let her in first and just waited for her to see Ryan.  He popped out and startled her but after she realized it was him, she rushed into his strong arms and began to kiss him.  Her white dress against his dark skin was amazing.  And her white skin and blonde hair against his blackness was astounding.

i just found a spot on the bed and reclined as they passionately kissed one another.  He had his hands on her ass.  He smiled when he realized she had no panties on.  He quickly lifted her dress so that just his bare hands now enveloped her ass cheeks.  By now their kissing reached a feverish pitch as i am sure she was feeling his hardness growing in his pants.  She was breathing heavy i am sure at the thought of his massive cock stretching her tight pussy and even tighter ass.

i was lying on the bed and taking pictures of everything happening in front of me.  They looked awesome together.  i was happy for her and him.  Really.  i mean it.  Thee wasn't a tinge of jealousy as i watched his dominance begin to devour her.

Well, maybe a tinge of jealousy, okay, but i was feeling very good about all of us being together.

Soon, he told her to get on the bed and she sat down on the edge of the bed.  He unzipped his pants and she immediately went down on him.  Clearly, this was something i had never done.  i never would have been so forward and domineering.  He expected her to suck him and she clearly wanted to.  It seemed so right.

His cock was rock hard as he grabbed her hair and was rocking her head back and forth on his beautiful dick.  There was a part of me wanting to be him for sure, but there was also a part of me that wanted to be her.  His dominance seeped out of every pore in his body and what was happening in his taking my wife in this way was as it should be.

As he would say, it was the natural order of things.

With his dick glistening with Syd's saliva, he told her to lay back and she instinctively opened her legs as she did.  As he climbed on top of her, the sight of him entering her was right out of all the best porn you have ever seen.  Really, porn isn't nearly this good and even interracial porn isn't this good and cuckold porn often seems so contrived.  This was real.  Real moans.  Real sweat.  Real fluids.

Syd grabbed my hand as he entered her and all i could see was her eyes slowly roll back in her head and a quiet moan flow from her lips.  She had waited a long time for this and she was clearly enjoying every inch of him.

She still had her heels on so it made for quite a picture and video.  My wife in her heels begging her black boyfriend to fuck her and wanting all of him inside her.  Eventually, she would be begging him to plant his cum inside her pussy.

He fucked her so hard.  Harder than i ever could.  Longer than i ever could.  More forcefully than i ever could.  More expertly than i ever could.  It is a little hard to admit, but it is true.  He clearly does things to her that i can't.

His cock is so much bigger than mine; longer and thicker.  Really, it is so much longer and so much thicker.  Just one of those things would make it incredible.  But to be long and thick was every mans dream.  To have his enormous black cock inside her, was every lady's fantasy.  And Syd was living it.

i saw this on a pic and added some to it for our circumstance.  But all of it is true.  "He was so much more equipped to please my wife.  His cock elicited so much more out of my wife than i ever could; incredible passion matched with unending orgasms.  When i am inside her, it is amazing, and i wonder if it is as amazing for her.  She says she loves how we make love.  But when he fucks her, she never wants to stop.  He does something to her i don’t do.  When he slides that monster deep inside my wife, the sigh that pours from her lips is like no other.  When she cums from feeling him buried deep, she cums with her whole body, mind, and soul.  He reaches places i don’t  He touches her in places i can’t reach.  i am lucky love is such an intangible thing, and i never doubt she loves me with all her heart.  But when it comes to pure sex, his enormous cock leaves her gasping and craving to have it again as soon as she can."

She was squirting all over and soon he was soaked with her wetness.  Like me, he loves the feel of her juices on his body.  She came so so hard and i was kissing her as he pounded her with his black cock.

He then pulled her to his cock and came in her mouth and instructed her not to swallow it.  Then he grabbed me and pushed me down under her and told her, "Give him what he needs."  Se then opened her mouth and let his cum flow out and instinctively and submissively i opened my mouth and swallowed his cum

It could have been a half hour or an hour but next thing i remember was him pulling out his huge cock and fucking her again and cumming all over her chest and stomach.  As soon as he was finished, he looked at me and pointed to his jizz and said, "That's for you."

Again, without hesitation i leaned on to her and licked up all his cum.  Syd looked at me and said, "Good boy."  At that moment, everything in the world was good!

After all the sex and sweat, we ordered food and spent the next 3-4 hours talking like old friends. This relationship is clearly not only about the sex.  Yes the sex is the fuel.  But it is the relationship we have all worked so hard to cultivate that keeps the fire burning.  It truly felt like a Triad.  A Dominant and his two submissives all loving their roles and having so much fun.

We all talked about how much we appreciate the honesty we have with one another.  i feel if we keep up the open honest communication we all have with one another, this Triad could last...for a long time.

Thursday, June 12, 2014

I want to be with my girlfriend...

Ry said he wanted to meet us at a hotel this time - change things up a bit.  He wanted to be with his girlfriend.  All during the week, he instructed me that i wasn’t allowed inside Syd.  He also forbade me even to touch her saying it was his pussy and he owned Syd.

Syd was very excited about meeting with him.  It had been a while and she openly talked about how she wanted to feel him inside her.  She would tease me throughout the week knowing that i couldn’t do anything.

The day before we met, he texted me and told me how he wanted her to dress.  He said he wanted her in high heels and a very short dress.  The rest he was leaving up to Syd.

He also was very good about making sure i was okay.  Making sure i could handle what was inevitably going to happen.  i assured him i was even though i knew there would be aspects that would be difficult for me.

Thankfully, Syd was also very reassuring during the week.  

He told us to wait in the lobby of the hotel.  As we drove to the hotel, we talked about how magical this all was.  And, how good we both felt about it.  Syd was especially caring to make sure i felt good about everything.  We both knew in a very short while he would be with us and she would be his.  His dominance assured it.

Syd looked absolutely ravishing.  He hair was gorgeous, to her shoulders, flowing so beautifully.  She definitely looked like a hotwife.  5” heels...very short dress...blouse unbuttoned to accentuate her luscious tits and mesmerizing cleavage…

There was a wedding at the hotel as well as some high school dance.  There is no doubt she was turning many heads of guys who would have loved to have her for their date.  i felt so proud walking in with her holding onto me so lovingly.  Yet, we both knew in a very short time she would be holding on to him for dear life.

We sat in the lobby and awaited his arrival.  He texted me and told me he would be arriving soon.  At the same time, he texted her and told her to spread her legs for him.  He walked in as if he was talking on the phone and he would casually look over in our direction.  Anyone watching would have had no idea what was happening, but Syd was getting wet at the clandestine excitement of it all.

He soon passed us and was heading towards the hotel room.  He would soon text us the room number and we would heed his call.

As we entered the room, he walked up to Syd and she easily melted into his arms.  They kissed passionately and i noted the erotic differences in the skin types, one so dark and one so white and seeing both together was a titillating.

Ry broke his kiss with Syd long enough to tell me to go down to the lobby restaurant and fetch some wine glasses.  i departed the room obediently and noted that i was so erect, or as erect as i could be in my cage.

As i walked down the hallway to the elevators, i couldn't believe this was all happening.  i was being sent out by my wife's lover to get some glasses while he had his way with her.  Others might find this wholly objectionable, i found it utterly arousing.

The whole time i was out of the room competing my assigned task, i could only imagine what he was doing to her.  What she must be feeling right now.  In some ways I had a pit in my stomach, but definitely not like i had ever imagined nor was it as bad as i ever thought it would be.  The pit was no match for the eroticism of this relationship.  My wife has a black lover and i am happy for her...for him.

i kind of rushed back to the room, I was eager to see them together.  When i opened the door, Syd was on all fours on the bed and he was fucking her.  All i heard was her intense moaning, moans of pleasure.  The pleasure in her moans was unmistakable. 

My hand immediately went to my crotch hoping I'm sure to stroke Syd's toy only to be rebuffed by the cold metal of my cage.  Sometimes i love my cage, I really do.  At that point, i was cursing it.

They were oblivious to my presence.  They were very much into one another as two lovers would be. 

He was fucking her so hard, so passionately, so dominantly.  She was in another place, so taken by him and his mammoth cock.  She was letting our screams of pleasure that i am sure any passersby as well as adjoining rooms could hear.

So intense was her pleasure and his, that all i could think about was not only how much i would love to be him, but also how much i’d love to be her.

As i laid next to them on the bed at one point, as he was deeply inside her and she was in open mouthed nirvana, he looked me straight in the eyes and said, “This is how she wants to be fucked, how she needs to be fucked.  She can't feel this way with your little dick.”

He then told her to tell me how much she needed him.  It was an easy request as the words flowed effortlessly from her lips, “Honey, he is making me feel so fantastic.  You can’t make me feel like this.  I love you and thank you for making all this possible.”

He pulled out of her and his black cock glistened with her juices.  Seeing him without a condom was so powerful.  He then instructed me to get on my knees and clean off his cock.  i did as he asked and began licking his black cock all over, making sure i was doing as he asked and cleaning it.  i wanted to suck it, badly, but i didn't want to presume i could and be thought of as disobedient.  He must have seen how eagerly i licked him and devoured his manhood.  He just looked at her and said, “Look at him.  Look how he loves this.”

i did my best at “cleaning” and not sucking and even did it without my hands as i thought he would prefer me doing it “wirelessly.”

i have to admit, his cock is something to behold.  His cock is probably 2x longer than mine and like 4x wider than mine.  i literally cannot touch any of my fingers together when i grasp him.  It must be such a high to reach into his pants and just take a piss.  i think if i had that much weight, length, and girth, i’d have to show it off!!

He then pushed my head off his cock and had Syd turn around so he could enter her again.  He told her to get on the bed and he began fucking her on all fours as she faced me.  

He then told me to take off my cage.  Gladly and excitedly I began to unlock my cage with the key he had placed on the hotel desk.  Immediately, Syd’s toy reached its fullness and was uncontrollably erect.

He told me to come over to him and then he pulled out of Syd.  He had us stand together so she could see the difference.  She couldn’t take her eyes off us and kind of gasped.  He said, “Now which one would you prefer?”

In  nanosecond, she exclaimed, “Yours!  Definitely!”

She continued, “Oh, my god, I can’t believe how much bigger you are than him.  I never thought there was THIS much difference.  Yours is sooooo much bigger, so much thicker”  Her eyes were transfixed on us and our differences.

He made her continue to tell me how much she preferred his cock and that i could never make her feel like he does.

All the while, i was raging hard.  i had never experienced such humiliation, especially from my wife and her black boyfriend.

While i felt humiliated, i was also incredibly aroused.  Looking at the differences in our cocks, i definitely understood it all and knew why she would say such things.  It was pretty obvious.  If i was her, i thought to myself, i’d say the same things.

And, he continued to fuck her so exquisitely and soon she was screaming and squirting all over the place.  i could tell he loved the feeling of making her squirt and reveled in the wetness that was all over him.  Soon, he impaled himself and i saw a look in him i hadn’t seen before. i knew he was fucking her, it looked like such an aggressive loving fuck and soon he exploded inside her and began to let out groans of pleasure and then again looked at me and said, “That’s how you fuck your wife.”

Hearing him say that made me feel small and yet i was excited for her.  It is hard to describe, but i was happy for Syd.

We then all laid down in the bed and intertwined we talked about how unbelievable this all was.  It all felt so erotic and so natural.  There was nothing hokey about it, nothing that didn't seem real or good, it all seemed perfect.  And all that i say and i wasn’t even allowed to cum.  I reeeeeally wanted to, but it didn't happen.  i knew it was all a part of me knowing my place.

Soon, i was being sent downstairs to get food for everyone and when i came back to the room, of course he was fucking her but this time they were facing the window to the parking lot and if someone was watching, they definitely would have seen a show.  I don’t think anyone did or could, but it was over the top seeing my wife being fucked at a window by her black boyfriend.

Afterward, Syd and i got into our car and we both couldn't have been happier.  i know you must be reading this wondering how is it possible, but it was and is.  We have never been happier and it all feels so good, so right, so pure.  She told me how much she loved me and how happy she was.  It felt warm hearing her say those things.

Syd and i talked about inviting Ry with us on our overnight trip to a seminar we are attending next week.

Stay tuned...

Sunday, April 6, 2014

Grow!

i made it through the rain. 

First, i helped her get ready for her day with Ry.  She looked so beautiful, so sexy.  She wore a very enticing see through blouse accented with a silky teddy underneath which perfectly exposed her cleavage, a mini skirt which showed off her sensual legs, and 5" heels which put her at about 6'1" standing stately and spicy.

During the day, Syd was very good about reassuring me - making sure i knew that i was her only slave, her only husband, and that she would always take care of me and that nothing or no one would ever come between us in our relationship.  It meant a lot to hear those words from her even though intuitively i know all this to be true.

My stomach was in a flutter as we got into the car for the ride to her boyfriend's house.  We talked all along the way about how erotic all this was and how fun.  That i was taking her to her boyfriend so that she could spend the day with him alone was really intoxicating.  

i know it was fun for me because i trust Syd and also i trust him.  Without that trust i think it all would have been a real struggle for me.  As it was, i was enjoying the fact that she was going to get some needed alone time with him and knew that she would be taken care of - more than taken care of!  it had been a stressful week for Syd so i also knew she would love the sex he was about to give her.

Thankfully i was able to get into a good frame of mind focusing on Syd's pleasure.  So, instead of focusing on my perceived angst, i was able to feel pleasure because she was feeling pleasure.

Now, all this doesn't mean i didn't feel angst, i definitely did.  But, it was a good angst, the kind i would say is appropriate for the cuckold relationship.

After i dropped her off, she left the car told me how much she loved me and walked into Ry's house.

i drove home alone feeling very good about all that transpired to this point.  

i concentrated on doing some chores around the house and running a couple errands.  All the while, of course, i was thinking of her and him and what they were doing.  

Finally, i received her call to come pick her up.  i raced to his house in record time!  He met me at the door and let me in the house whereupon entering Syd came to me and gave me a big hug and kiss.  The smile on her face made it all worthwhile.  And, the smile on his face spoke volumes about his conquest.

We all talked about how wild this all was and he thanked me for doing all this, saying none of this could happen without me.  It felt good to hear that from him.

On our ride home, Syd was so loving towards me and we both felt closer because of the experience. Oddly, all of this has brought us closer in so many ways.

Friday, March 21, 2014

To Grow or Not to Grow...that is the Question

This week, her boyfriend Ry said he wanted to see her on Saturday (tomorrow) - alone.  If you have read this blog, you know i have had some very difficult times around these types of scenes.  In the past, when i felt worst, i know i was focusing on myself, my feelings, my needs and wants.  i know i feel best when i am focusing on Syd's needs, wants, and feelings.  What all seems like a haze of fear and trembling becomes clearly an erotic endeavor that is fun and thrilling, and yes okay, complimented by a little angst.

And, i realize more and more that is normal.  And, the more Syd reassures me, the more i feel good about her going to see him tomorrow and spending the day with him without me.  i feel like i am becoming more able to bask in her love than baste in my fears.  After all, i know she loves me, would never to anything to harm me, and will always take care of me.

So, i sit here plugged and caged reminded of my submissiveness with every movement.  By tomorrow night after i take her to her boyfriend and lover, and then after she calls me to pick her up, i fervently hope i can be thankful for this gift she has given me (and he has given me), an opportunity for me to grow.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Six Month Anniversary & New Bull/Dominant

Sorry for not posting sooner, but a lot has happened in the last 2 months or so since the last post.

Here's the latest:

6 Months of
Female Led Marriage - Chastity -  Cuckoldry
(a LOT to celebrate!)
February 23rd marked the six month anniversary of our new lifestyle for Syd and me.  This is to say twenty
and one-half years of marriage.  To celebrate it, Ry and i thought up a surprise evening for all of us - one in which Syd would know nothing about until the very last second.  Ry suggested we go to his house for the evening.  This was a gesture i didn't take lightly as i know how private he is.  It felt good that he trusted us as we trust him.

He and i had the idea hatching for about a week until the fateful day came.  i told Syd we were going out on a date and to please keep her schedule clear.  i told her we were going out to dinner at a place she had never been.  She seemed very happy to go out in what was billed as our "anniversary" dinner.

There is always suspense around what she will wear when we go out now.  i never know exactly - will it be a sexy outfit?  Or, will it be something casual?  i asked her to dress sexy for me.  i even asked her to wear garters for me.  She smiled at me and said playfully, "You know, I only wear those for my boyfriend."

Nonetheless, she looked stunning.  Her shiny blonde mane so perfectly framed her pretty face.  It bounced and curled off her shoulders just how i like it. She wore silver hoop earrings - my favorites.  i think they make her look so elegant yet incredibly desirable - i.e., they say "Fuck me!" to me.

The blouse she had on was absolutely one of finest i have ever seen her wear.  It was a light tan shirt that was see-through on the arms and back and very low cut in the front.  Her gorgeous neck displayed her necklace that we both know as the symbol of our female led marriage.  To see her silky bra through her blouse is a sight to behold.  i am getting hard right now just writing about it.

The pants she chose for the evening are a deep goldish/brown color and accentuate her ass perfectly.  Whenever she wears these pants, guys can't help but look and stare at her as she passes.   And to top it off, she wore my favorite boots - brown leather with a very sexy 3 or 4 inch heel.  These boots look like a female dominant could wear them or a hotwife.  In this case, it demonstrated both.

i was feeling very good about this evening.  Even though i knew she would be taken by her "boyfriend" in ways i could only imagine, i was very excited about watching her in ecstasy which i knew would almost certainly happen.  i am still caged so i knew there wasn't a high probability of her "toy" seeing any action, but i definitely hoped.  i was looking forward to feeling a closeness among the three of us - almost of the polyamorous variety.  Perhaps this would be the seed of bad feelings for me later.

We drove to Ry's house and Syd really didn't suspect anything until we began to pull into his driveway.  She knew instantly that this house must be her boyfriend's.  She smiled and said, "I can't believe you two did this.  I had no idea.  Now, I am very nervous."

i told her that i didn't tell her about it earlier because i didn't want her to be nervous and i sensed she appreciated that.  Previously, i bought two bottles of wine and had them stashed in the back of the car.  i knew she and Ry both like red wine and i bought a couple special bottles of Pinot Noir for the occasion.

We walked hand in hand to the front door and i rang the doorbell.  He answered the door and we entered the foyer and were all smiling brilliantly.  i closed the door as they hugged and kissed.  He then welcomed me and shook my hand then we also hugged.  The kind of macho hug you might give your male cousin - lol.

He walked us through his living room and dining room showing us a couple projects he had underway.  His house was very warm and welcoming.  It felt very good to be in his home and there wasn't an ounce of me that felt uncomfortable.

We proceeded to the kitchen where he was almost complete with a renovation project he did himself.  The workmanship was impeccable and Syd and i both loved his choices of finishes.  He continued telling us the details of the renovation and at the end he looked at me and said, "And, I have a favor to ask you."

From there, he showed me various food items i was to prepare for the three of us - tilapia, couscous, and broccoli.  He told me i was to prepare the fish with coriander, salt and pepper topped with lemon slices.  The couscous just needed to be boiled and set aside.  And the broccoli was to be steamed.  He wanted the coriander to be roasted.  And, then showed me where his mortar and pestle was so i could grind the coriander.

Then, i was left in the kitchen alone as they proceeded to the living room.  i knew i had a task and was intent on pleasing Syd and Ry with the dinner.  Having the task almost, i say almost, let me forget what was happening in the other room.  i couldn't see anything, but i could hear things.  First, it was mostly cute giggles and then after a bit of silence i could hear Syd moaning.  She was moaning louder than i can ever remember her moaning and the sounds of her pleasure accompanied my directions to prepare dinner in a symphony of eroticism.  i couldn't help but feel the pressure of my little dick (as Ry instructs me to call my penis) straining against my metal cage.  It was very hard to concentrate knowing the most intense scene was playing out in the next room.

As i continued my preparations, Syd's moans grew increasingly strident and then i could hear the sounds of them going upstairs to what must have been Ry's bedroom.  Her moans while a bit muffled, were growing in intensity and i could tell she was going through many phases of ecstasy.  And, i did my best to stay focused on the task at hand for i wanted to make this a very special dinner, an anniversary dinner, to be celebrated with the three of us.

This is what i imagined as i prepared dinner.
So, i set the table, searching his cabinets for wine glasses and napkins, placing the water glasses, getting silverware and even checking google to make sure all were placed properly (the wine and water glasses threw me).  i reveled in the submissive attitude i felt.  Every once and while i would hear her moan so beautifully.  i was astounded that i felt good feelings inside each time i heard her sexual cry or his guttural groan.  i knew she was feeling pleasure and that was all that mattered to me.

The moans were growing stronger and louder and soon i could hear him cum with such force, and although i knew he was wearing a condom, i imagined him cumming inside her with rockets of cum inside her freshly invaded pussy.  i truly wished i was there to witness it.

As dinner was close to being fully prepared, they came downstairs and she reached me first.  She melted right into my arms and planted a huge kiss on me thanking me for orchestrating this night and for cooking for her and her black boyfriend.

i lowered the lights and asked them both to sit at the table.  It was round and Syd sat in the middle of us.  As they sat and talked, i served them their food and then brought my plate to the table last.

We all sat there looking at one another and just couldn’t get over what was transpiring.  None of us had ever experienced what we were experiencing and it felt so universally good - on all levels.

Syd raised her glass and toasted Ry for having us over and then looked at me and toasted me for making it all possible.  The dinner was off to a good start.

We sat and ate and drank and talked like old friends for over an hour and a half.  We exchanged stories about one another giving each a glimpse into our lives.  He was learning more about us and we were learning more about him. 

Once dinner was over, i cleared the table as they went into the living room.  i joined them soon and Syd was
lying in his arms on the couch as if she had been with him for a long time.  They looked cute.  It was an awesome sight and it made my whole body warm.  He began to kiss her, tweaking her nipples, and inserting one of his fingers inside her.  I’d say it was within about a minute she was literally squirting all over, soaking her pants and even his couch.  It was quite a sight.
Seeing both her hands around his dick
with room to spare, caused us both
to look at one another.

Ry saw me and mentioned it was time for all of us to go upstairs to his bedroom. As we ascended the stairs, he handed me a camera.  i knew exactly what to do without being told or asked.  As we entered his bedroom, he tore off her clothes and his own.  Soon he was towering over her and she laid there on her back and he knelt over her with his massive cock near her mouth.  She went down on him so eagerly, without being told.  She seemed to love holding him and feeling his massiveness in her hand and mouth.  He told her to grab his cock with both hands.  She did and then looked at me and smiled as if to say, “We both know i can’t do this with you.”

i was taking so many pictures i hoped it wasn’t spoiling the mood.  Flash after flash was capturing their sanctioned tryst.

He then lowered himself so that his enormous cock was at the entrance of her pussy.  He lowered himself into her and i didn’t know what to do: Do i focus on her face to see her expression as he enters her?  Do i focus on him and watch his face as he enters her?  Do i focus on his dick and her pussy?  Or, do i take pictures?  Well, i took pictures and tried my best to capture all that was happening in my mind - trying to savor each moment knowing that this is the culmination of years and years of fantasy.

He pounded her so hard and so long and so well that i had plenty of time to take everything in from many different angles.  She squirted all over him and all over the bed, even squirting juices landed on the camera lens once!  She was in absolute ecstasy.  My wife...with her lover, her black lover.

My Wife...
His Lover.
And the amazing thing about it all is that everyone felt good and was getting what they wanted.  We again commented on how special this all was and how incredibly erotic it was.

He stepped it up and began to insert his fingers into her one at a time until finally his whole hand was inside her.  i thought she was in ecstasy before, and this was another level yet again.  He would alternate with his hand for a while until she a powerful orgasm overcame her and then he would thrust his dick inside her and make her cum that way to another crescendo.  This went on for a long time until finally he collapsed on top of her and somehow we all ended up lying in bed together with her in the middle.

i just looked at what was happening in front of me and really could scarcely believe my eyes.  There she was, my wife lying with her black lover, in his arms.  They were kissing and cuddling.  i realized i hadn’t even taken any clothes off.  i was taking so many pictures at first and then after a while i figured i would wait to be told to do so.  If she wanted me nude she would say it, right?  Well, this is all good in theory until she actually doesn't say anything!

So, there i laid in my clothes with my arm around Syd and Ry had his arm around her as well.  It was an exquisite site.  She was facing him and clearly was taken by all that just happened.  She couldn’t keep her hands off him, and for the most part i loved watching this.  However, after a while, i realized that she wasn't responding to my touch nor was she even touching me.  Her focus was totally on him.  In retrospect i can understand this a little more than i did that night, but it was painful to experience, on a number of levels.

The most pressing in my mind was knowing how i have confided in Syd over these past 6 months about how i do need reassurances in this journey, especially when her attentions are given to a bull or more poignantly here, her “boyfriend.”  For the most part, i am very good about feeling the joy inside me by seeing the joy Syd is experiencing.  This was a different night.

Okay to sit here and sat i don't have feelings of insecurity or inadequacies, well that would just be flat out dishonest.  Don’t get me wrong, for some reason, with Ry, i feel those feeling less than i have in the past with bulls or prospective bulls.  But thankfully those aren't my overriding feelings.  i am able to focus on her pleasure and derive so much joy from her enjoyment.

Adding into all this, i was feeling left out of the experience.  It was if to Syd that i wasn’t even there.  There were times while we all laid there that Ry would reach over and grab my hand and hold it.  He was clearly trying to make me feel a part of it all.  All of us have even had discussions about the importance of all of us feeling a part of this experience and how that openness and honesty will ultimately be the foundation upon which we can build a relationship.

At one point i pulled my arm off Syd to see her reaction. By the way, i don't feel good in retrospect about "testing" her.  Normally, she would say something like, “Hey, put your arm back here.”  This time she said nothing, and there i was lying next to her with seemingly no contact, no connection.  i felt a huge pit in my stomach and just felt terrible.  It was very difficult to overcome.  i wanted so badly to let go of my bad feelings but i just couldn't figure out why she was acting like this.  We have discussed this type of thing so many times - i.e., my need for reassurances.  And you would think this would be an occasion that there would be a blaring light on that need. 

A part of me thinks i shouldn’t even be thinking about what i want.  A good slave is looking out solely for the benefit of his Mistress or Master.  i do think this is not a want but a need on my part - i do need these reassurances which ultimately help me feel secure, secure enough to engage in this treacherous yet extremely fulfilling journey.

Near the end, Ry said to Syd that he wanted to see us (Syd and me) make love, he wanted to witness how we had sex and to see our passion.  i do believe he was doing this so i could feel more included in the festivities.  It was a very nice gesture.  This was problematic for me in multiple ways.  First, he had just finished fucking my wife with his huge cock and even fisted her.  Maybe i should and maybe i shouldn’t, but i thought to myself, “Oh shit, he wants to see us make love and she may never even feel me!  Sure this was my inadequacy coming out.  i also was not feeling particularly driven to have sex with Syd given her attention to me.

Ry saw that he had hit some nerve and said nicely, “I have to go to the bathroom” with a fond wink.

i asked Syd if she wanted to do that - make love in front of him - and she said, “I am okay with it.”  Alright, in the written word, it might look harmless, hey, she’s okay with it.  But the way she said it, and it was probably my feeling-hurt ears that picked up the audible, but i heard, “I mean, I’m not really feeling like having your puny penis in my pussy, but i am okay with it.”

Ok, ok, i know i am blowing it way out of proportion, and to some extent i am, but this is kind of what i was hearing and how badly i was feeling.  And, although Syd obviously didn’t mean all that i “heard."  In my brain, her lack of enthusiasm was palpable.  And, you know what, if i had just been fucked and fisted by him for a few hours, i might also be less than enthusiastic about more sex, even if Brad Pitt was the object.  Further, later i remembered how she had said earlier in the week how she may not want to make love in front of him or anyone because she viewed it as so private and intimate between us. 

Yes, i know, i am a cad.

Finally, it got late and we had to go.  The tension inside my body was killing me and i could hardly make it another minute.

We thanked Ry profusely for his generosity and hosting us.  He gave her a passionate kiss good bye and we exchanged a warm hug.

As soon as we got in the car, Syd knew there was something wrong.  You can’t (or shouldn’t be able to) live with someone for 20 years without knowing what one another is feeling.  And that is precisely why i think this hurt me so badly, i couldn't figure out how Syd could not know i was feeling this when we were all together.  i mean, even Ry sensed it and i definitely felt him reach out to try and include me.

i was torn also in describing my feelings.  All my uneasy feelings came in the last hour of us being together for over 5 hours.  A lot of terrific stuff happened and i didn’t want this to cloud over all the fun and positive events that transpired.

i explained to Syd how hurt i was - more so out of feeling neglected than anything she actively did.  i mentioned the “I am okay with it” line about having sex with me at the end for good measure.  i felt good about the entire evening until that happened with her.

After expressing myself and opening up about how i felt, Syd was devastated.  She clearly was very very upset that she would have been the cause of me feeling so badly.  It took us the entire ride home to talk about it and even though i could forgive her, it was hard to let go of the bad feelings i had.  i realized at that point it was more my issue now since i had forgiven her.  But, i was still feeling wounded.

In the morning, we spent some time together and Syd cried in my arms.  She felt terribly about what she had done and openly said she definitely messed up.  She said she was inattentive to me.  I know Syd would never intentionally hurt me for anything so seeing the hurt in her eyes and knowing she would be very mindful of this in the future, it was very easy for me to forgive her and feel good feelings toward her. 

i know nothing happens in a relationship one-way.  And, i knew i had to apologize for my actions.  i know Syd loves me.  i know she would never do anything to hurt me.  So, i could have or even should have waited to express my feelings knowing that it was something way out of the ordinary for her.  I apologized for my actions - for not being more understanding of her and being more mindful of her pleasures.  i will do better next time.

We went to lunch together and talked some more and you could feel the distance between us evaporate and i feel closer to her now than ever before.  These types of situations have a way of doing that for us.

We made a “date” for when we got home to cuddle nude in bed.  We did and it felt so warm and so secure and i again felt so devoted to her.  i ended up bringing her to a squirting orgasm and it felt good to do this for her.

For me, i remained in my cage despite hinting at a release.  Lots of loving, lots of touching, but no orgasms for me.  But you know, i am thankful for that.  She controls my orgasms and i am very grateful she does.  And, now most importantly, i feel completely connected to Syd again.

Whew - the end!