Bull J

Today i texted with Bull J and i do like my interaction with him.  It feels like texting a friend, maybe even someone closer because of our experiences.  He does make me laugh and i am sure that Syd likes that in him as well.  Of the guys she has been with, i am learning the most from him.  i never really thought about this as a learning experience for me, but it is.  i have learned a lot about Syd’s body and for that i will be forever grateful.  Being able to find her G spot has added so much to our lovemaking, and i want to perfect that sensation for her.  i am not quite there yet, but i will get there!  i suspect she will be meeting Bull J for coffee tomorrow or the next day and i wonder how that is going to go.  i do hope he responds well and that we continue to see him.

Cuckold Correction & Training

Last night, Syd told me to get undressed and lie in bed.  I did so and my mind began racing, "Okay, is this a good thing or bad thing?"  The way she said it, i knew she wasn't totally pleased with me.

And, in the back of my mind, i knew it was for good reason.  Earlier in the day, with a hundred things happening with the kids and life in general, as we were driving, i asked her, "Do you want to play?"

She said something like, “This is not really a good time to ask me.”  Instead of understanding what all was happening in her orbit, i focused on myself and basically pouted.  i began trying to outline to her why i asked and was even upset with her response.  Inside i knew i had crossed a line and things were definitely chilly on the ride home.  And from experience, i knew we would be talking about this later whether she brought it up or i brought it up.

So, i laid down on the bed on my back nude.  i was hard already.  Syd took some of our favorite oil and rubbed her hands with it and then began rubbing my dick.  She got in a position in which she faces me and lays her legs over mine and almost immobilizes me.  Then she rubbed my dick talking about the day.  She talked about how good i was in the morning bringing her coffee in bed and having the kitchen clean when she went downstairs.  And while she was praising me, she was getting me so aroused and hard; it felt incredible.

As i was very near an orgasm, she began to talk about what happened on our car ride.  And, she stopped rubbing me altogether.  She told me how disappointed she was that all i thought about was myself and didn't understand what she was going through at the time.  Immediately, my dick went limp and i felt very badly about what i had done.

i apologized and as i said the words she began stroking me again saying, “I know you are and and as my slave you have to get better at looking at things from my perspective.”

She continued, “And a good slave looks out for his Mistress and instead of thinking about himself should think of ways to make my life less stressful.”  i nodded and said, “Yes, Mistress.  That is what i want to do and what pleases me.  i realize that now even more.”  She continued telling me “what a little boy” i was until i was near the edge of orgasm again.

This may take longer than 8 weeks!

She stopped rubbing me again and said, “You know how badly you made me feel?  On top of all the other issues happening with the kids, I now had to worry about you and your wants.”  And again my dick deflated and i felt very badly for what i had done.  i told Syd how much i was sorry and felt badly about adding to her stress instead of taking stress away from her.  After all, it excites me to think of ways to reduce her stress and i know i love doing that.

She began rubbing me again and said, “You are a good little boy.  I know you want to do these things and it is my job to help remind you of consequences of not doing them.”  Of course, i got instantly hard again and again she brought me to the edge of orgasm and stopped.

She talked about how i must have felt that she wasn't going to take care of her - How selfish i was in my actions.

Then, she began rubbing me again saying, “But you know, I will always take care of you, your are my prized slave, I will care for you in ways you haven’t even imagined.”  And she continued along this line reaffirming how precious i was to her and that i didn't need to think about my needs that she would take care of them for me.

She brought me to the edge again and again and again in this way until finally at one point i begged her to stop because i was going to cum.  She continued until i was just about to orgasm and then totally stopped everything and i had a ruined orgasm - she has gotten very good at this and the perfect timing.

I hadn't come in over a week and i was so looking forward to a full orgasm.  She made it very clear that i would have been able to have a full orgasm if but for my earlier actions.

As we went to sleep afterward, i reflected on the day and realized even more how selfish i was and knew that was not how i wanted to act.  An overwhelming sense of thankfulness came over me for Syd and how she corrected that action.  How she used positive reinforcements for me.  In fact, i realized she was probably training me given the repeated edging and verbal cues.  i nodded off to sleep in such a state of bliss knowing i was the luckiest slave and husband on the planet.

A Bull Meeting Syd - Covert Affairs

i am writing this hours after my last entry.  Syd met with the guy.  This was her first meeting alone with a guy on a first meeting.  She handled herself beautifully.  Unbeknownst to her, i was watching the whole episode from a nearby coffee shop.  They were sitting outside at a table of another coffee shop.  This guy in my emails with him was pretty much an arrogant dick.  i thought this would be great practice for Syd figuring he would try to pull some of the same s*^t he did with me.  i felt like a covert agent watching my partner from afar and i was there to protect her, anything goes wrong, i knew i was going to jump up and run and protect her.  Well, he's the one who needed protection.  Now, i didn’t hear what they said until much later, so i only could go by body language.  Syd was sitting like a proud peacock (now you know she didn’t know I was there), he was sitting opposite her.  Next thing i see is him fold his arms (i.e., like oh shit i better protect myself).  He just sat there like a little school boy listening to the attractive teacher on his first day of class.  He laughed at her jokes and it looked like he was being very gentlemanly.  Syd looked resolute and firm.  

Well, we met soon after their meeting and we couldn’t have had a more fun time together.  i doubt we had as much fun in our entire marriage as we did today.  Today, it was confirmed to me that i am married to a very powerful lady, a wife who knows what she wants, and won’t let some guy just trolling for a fuck to get any upper hand.  To see Syd basking in hr conquest was something to behold.  In the beginning I wanted Syd to experience all she could in life and that included sexually.  It is clear that she is experiencing so much more and I am elated that she is feeling the powerful feelings she is - she deserves to feel them.  i have never felt so loved, so lovable, and so in love in my life.  i have never felt so powerful as a husband, lover, and friend (and of course slave boy) as i feel now to Syd.  i am so very lucky to be married to Syd and now i know “my friend” is there to help me reach new heights.  i am so excited for our next 20 years of marriage!

My New Friend

i am sitting here this morning while Syd is texting a bull.  We have been with him already so i know him.  There is nothing easy about sitting and waiting so i choose to try and busy my mind.  i am finding the most difficult issue for me so far is giving up control, letting go.  It gives me a pit in my stomach not knowing what is happening.  i suspect that this “pit” and i will have to become friends.   

In the past, i would have suspected the worst.  Now, in this new found place, it is a little better, i trust Syd and know she loves me and would never do anything to hurt me.  When i focus on that, i can feel my breathing ease and body begin to relax.

Dishes

Tonight i was doing dishes and feeling so thankful that i had this to do.  i wasn't really sure why I felt that way.  i knew mostly it was because Syd asked, really instructed me to do it as an ongoing rule.  There are definitely times i get a hard on as i am doing the dishes.  As i was doing them tonight, I could hear Syd in with the kids watching tv, talking about school.  I realized, maybe she wouldn't have the time to be there for them in that way if the dishes were here.  Immediately, it became more clear why i felt so thankful.

Erotica (Fiction) - Ch. 2

FICTION - Today i came home from work early and wanted to surprise Syd.  The kids were at their grandparents' home for the weekend, and i wanted to get the weekend started early with her in a very romantic way.  When i pulled up the driveway i noticed the garage doors were open.  Syd's car was in her spot but there was another car in my spot.  i suspected whose car it was but didn't really know.  The fact that it was parked in my spot should have been the definitive tell.

You see Syd and i have been married for 20 years.  For 20 years, she was faithful to me.  No one but me enjoyed the fruits of her sexuality.  That all changed on our anniversary when i proposed to her that we have a female led marriage and that i live in chastity and we pursue a cuckold lifestyle.

Soon thereafter, Syd began corresponding with Master Griffin.  A few months ago, Master Griffin surprised us by meeting us at a local jazz club.  He doesn't live near us but came into the club and stole her from me for the night and the weekend.

After that weekend, it was clear to me that although Syd was my wife, she was his hotwife, his lover.  

i had never seen them together, really.  i mean, the first night i was able to catch glimpses, but i never really saw them together sexually.  And, when i did, they knew i was there.

Immediately, when i saw his car, i knew it had to be his, my dick got hard.  It instantly got rock hard thinking about them together, thinking about that if they were together, Syd didn't tell me about it beforehand.  It was just last week that she made me say in a mantra to her, "You can have sex with anyone, anywhere, anytime.  And i don't have to be there."   Over and over again she made me say that until punctuating it with me cumming inside her as if to seal it into my brain.

If it was his car, i was happy for her, happy for him.  Because i knew i was happy for us and how much closer he has made us feel over these past months.

Before him, when i jacked off, i thought about my dick being inside her and me cumming inside her.  After him, i jack off a lot more about him being inside her giving her orgasms that i never could.

i desperately wanted to see them in action.

i went into the house through the garage and tried to be ever so quiet.  In a way, i was being quiet because i truthfully wanted to sneak inside and watch them.   But part of me knew i would be welcome so i didn't need to sneak but i also didn't want to interrupt their lovemaking.

Subtle noises of passion emanated from our upstairs.  i carefully ascended the stairs and was pleased that i could hear Syd's voice so clearly.  i thought, maybe, just maybe the bedroom door was left ajar.  To my delight, it was.  Although i couldn't see into the room from the stairwell, it was plain that the door was open and it was also evident there were two people in our bedroom.  One voice was Syd's and the other deeper voice was unmistakably Master Griffin's.  

By the way, if you come home in the middle of the day and find your wife in bed with a lover, and your dick becomes rock hard at the sounds, then you are a cuckold.

i slowly crept down the hallway trying to be silent so i could catch a glimpse.  When i walked about three quarters down the hallway, i gained a view into the master bedroom, our bedroom, now Master's bedroom.

Syd was on her knees in front of him.  She had her arms to her side and somewhat behind her.  He had his hands on top of her head seemingly guiding his manhood into her mouth and down her throat.  They were both totally naked and Syd looked so striking.  There was my wife on her knees in front of Master Griffin and while i have to admit i felt a tinge of jealousy, the overwhelming feeling was one of being so proud of Syd.  So proud of her transformation into a sexually liberated wife who was experiencing all that life had to offer by being with Master Griffin.  He indeed is a master, a master lover, a master dominant, a master teacher, a master confidant and more.

For about forty-five minutes she expertly sucked his cock, at times he would pull her off seemingly just to admire her beauty.  Once when he pulled her mouth off him, he deftly leaned down and grabbed her body as if she was a baby and cradled her in his arms.  There they kissed in the middle of our bedroom as the late afternoon sunlight streamed through the large floor to ceiling windows.  i have seen Syd give Master Griffin a blow job and even watched him fuck her albeit for a very short period of time, and nothing could have prepared me for the jealous feelings i would feel watching them just kiss, the intimacy was intense.  Watching her tongue move to greet his and accept his tongue into her mouth.  The passion expressed, given, and received before me was almost too much to bear.  i noticed i had a huge pit in my stomach but i also noticed my penis was very very hard - without me even touching it.

They kissed too long for my liking, really.  It hit me hard that this was not just about sex - i mean i always knew that.  It was about an emotional experience among the three of us that would yield itself to a spiritual awakening.  It was way beyond sex and i knew it.

He carried Syd over to the bed and gently placed her in the middle.  I had moved closer to the door so i could make out more of what they were saying.  i heard him say, "Now, it's your turn my sweet."  She loved what he was doing to her, how in command he was.  She was almost in a trance feeling so taken care of knowing Master Griffin was fully in charge.  She opened her legs as if to say, "I am yours."

As he gazed at her womanhood, he told her how stunning she was and how pleased he was that he could be with her.  He lowered his head and tasted her.  His huge black hands were around her waist and the contrast would make anyone cum just by looking at these two together.  He looked back up at her and could see her eyes were now closed and she was in another world.  He was driving her crazy running his tongue up and down and over her labia until she was begging for him to lick her clit.  He was teasing her so skillfully.  Her body would arch to meet his tongue and as quickly as she would arch he would stop and let all the wonderful feelings wash over her.  She would thrust and moan and then finally calm down and then he would proceed to lick more and rub more and she would arch as if she wanted to have an orgasm and he would slow down again.  He massaged her clit with his tongue in a furious yet loving fashion and she was moaning and whimpering throughout.  She reached down to feel his hair and wanted to explode but he wouldn't let her.  He was wreaking havoc with her hooded jewel playing her like a violin making sweet music with her body.

i watched this intense rise and fall of emotions for almost an hour.  Beads of sweat were starting to show on both lovers.  Additionally, with the freedom of an empty house, or so she thought, Syd was very vocal, more vocal than even she normally is.  By the end of the hour, she was thrusting and buckling almost uncontrollably.  She was begging him to let her orgasm and begging him to fuck her with his cock.  At one point i think she even began to cry.  It was no doubt a cry of rapture love and a cry of frustration.

Syd's favorite position.

Syd looked to be totally enthralled with Master Griffin.  She was possessed and i believe would have done anything he asked her to do at that moment.  He told her to get on her knees and get on all fours.  i knew Syd's favorite position was doggie style, and obviously so did Master Griffin.  i am sure he was very deliberate in having her in this position.  His first fuck of my wife in our bedroom would be on his terms and in her favorite position.  She wouldn't forget it.  Our bed would now have a much deeper meaning.

He placed the head of his cock against her soaking pussy.  She wanted all of him, right now.  She wanted him to bury his length into her so that she could feel the prevailing relief of an orgasm.  However, he was too good for that.  He loved her too much for that.  And the moment she was waiting for, the moment i was waiting for (!) came as he pierced her wet pussy and thrust his potent cock inside her.  The moment he went inside her i watched her reaction and it was one that i never witnessed when i entered her.  Her head went back and she looked upwards at the ceiling and arched her back as if trying to accommodate his mammoth manhood, her eyes rolling back in her head with her mouth open gasping.

Then, without any notice, she collapsed and began quivering on the bed and was having her well deserved orgasm screaming, "Oh my god, oh my god," over and over again and saying, "I love you Griffin, I love your cock, oh my god!!"  For a split second his cock came out of her and as she lay there on the bed he lowered himself into her and she again began having more orgasms.  

At that moment, for some reason he looked over at the door and could see that i was there watching the spectacular events and he kind of tilted his head as if to say, "Come on in."  i was relieved, because when my eyes first met his i wondered if he would be upset that i was there.  i should have known from all of our discussions that he wouldn't be.  You see, i truly believe Master Griffin wants only what is best for Syd and me.  Of course that works great, because we only want what is best for each other and him.

Syd was clearly in a daze.  He rolled her over onto her side away from me and i watched as his long thick cock opened her up and thrust inside her.  All the while, i'd say only about three-quarters of his cock was going inside her.  Even so, that was still double the length that i ever fucked her with.

He continued to fuck her and she had multiple screaming squirting orgasms.  She rolled over to hug him and i could see she had tears in her eyes.  Just then, my eyes met hers and she began to cry even more.  She said, "I have never felt so loved in all my life.  Thank you for providing this all to me and thank you Griffin for making me feel like this.  I love you both so much!!"

She cuddled next to him, enjoying his superbly sculpted body, running her hands over his muscles.  Soon her hand went to his cock and she looked at me and said, "Honey, his cock is so beautiful, look at it.  It makes me feel so incredible!"

In that moment, even though i don't think she meant to make me feel this way, i felt so inadequate, so small.  Watching her hand shrink against the size of his cock, i realized why Master Griffin called his penis a cock and mine a dicklet.  It was not all that i was feeling, but it was definitely in there.  Mostly, i was happy for Syd.  She clearly was in ecstasy.  

He fondled her breasts playing with her hard nipples as she said she wanted to feel him inside her again.  He hovered over her rosy body which had blood racing through every part imaginable.  She felt fully alive.  And so did he.  He spread her legs wide and entered her inch by inch until he was fully enveloped by her wet pussy.  

He instructed me to "take your clothes off and kiss your wife while she gets fucked."  He began moving in and out of her with a steady unhurried rhythm.  He picked up speed and she wrapped her legs around him squeezing him closer to her.  i noticed her nails were digging into his back as she climaxed again.  i moved from kissing her lips to kissing her forehead because of the force of the motion of their fucking.  i could see that she was looking at him and he was looking into her eyes, their eyes locking, he continued to make sweet love to my wife.

He reached around and i could tell he was inserting a finger in to Syd's luscious ass.  Almost immediately, she came again.  i loved watching her climax and her body quiver from his prowess.  

He then rolled over on the bed and told her to "climb on and feel me inside you as you look into my eyes."

 She lowered herself onto his throbbing hard cock and in one motion as she impaled herself onto him threw her head back and screamed, "Oh Griffin, I love you so much!!!"  She looked into his eyes and for the first time could see in front of her the contrast of their skin and how beautiful it looked.  His powerful black body against her soft white skin sent her to another orgasm.  This orgasm seemed more powerful than the last.  He reached up and grabbed her close to him stroking her hair and kissing her softly as her breath became more normal.

As they kissed he rolled her onto her side facing away from him and put his softening yet firm dick inside her.  He whispered to her, "I'm going to stay inside you for as long as I can."  He wrapped his arms around her and brought her closer to him.  After a while his cock did slip out and they laid there together.

He looked at me and said, "Cuck, be a good boy and get us some water." 

When i got back to our bedroom, Syd had fallen asleep in his arms.  It was a beautifully erotic sight.

Anyone - Anytime - Anywhere

Last night, Syd and i played and She had me bring Her to multiple orgasms, squirting orgasms using Her g-spot and a-spot.  i was wondering if i was going to get a turn as i was so hard and turned on by it all.

Then, after about 5 orgasms we just cuddled and She told me to go get Her favorite dildo.  It happens to be the biggest one we have.

At that point i felt like i had little chance of being inside Her but it didn't matter because i wanted to please Her.  So, i used the dildo on Her and She came in very short time.  Then, she instructed me, "I want more."  And, i continued fucking Her with the dildo and She came so intensely a lot of times (i lost count) but it had to be over 5 times.

After the last time, she just announced, "Okay, put it away."  Which i dutifully did (of course after cleaning it and getting Her some wine).

There we were laying in bliss and i wanted Her so badly.  i wondered if She did want me inside Her, if She would even feel me.

After cuddling for a while and then kissing, She said, "Get inside me."

When Syd tells me this, i do it very quickly because i didn't one time and lost my chance - i won't let that happen again.

As i went inside Her, it felt so incredible.  Her pussy is divine.  She asked me if i wanted to cum, and i of course said, "Yes, Mistress, very much so, please."

Syd's mantra for me.

She told me i wouldn't be able to but to fuck Her.  And i did and was like constantly on the edge because i was ready to cum just by watching Her with the dildo.  Then, after edging a few times, She told me to repeat after Her, "You can fuck anyone, anywhere, anytime.  And, i don't need to be there."  This last part was a new addition.  i was used to the rule that She may fuck anyone, anywhere, anytime, but adding "And i don't need to be there" sent me over the top.

i wanted to cum so badly.  After i would get close, i would stop because She made it clear i was not to orgasm.  She would then tell me to repeat the mantra, "You can fuck anyone, anywhere, anytime.  And, i don't need to be there."  Again and again, and then She would say, "Now fuck me!"

And, i would for as long as i could without cumming.  Then, i would stop and She would have me repeat the mantra again.

Until finally, She had me repeat, "You can fuck anyone, anywhere, anytime.  And, i don't need to be there."  She said, "Fuck me and cum inside me!"  Again, I never ask questions, i just do it and while i was fucking Her, She would tell me "What a good little boy you are."  "You want to see me fuck other men."  Finally, i came so hard, it felt so incredible.

As i cuddled into Her arms afterwards, i realized what i was repeating and what it meant.  The mantra ("You can fuck anyone, anywhere, anytime.  And, i don't need to be there.")
 Syd gave me i am sure was meant to be embedded in my submissive mind.

It is.

Erotica (fiction) - Syd Style

FICTION - Syd and I went out after a very long week.  We both needed to get out and definitely needed to blow off some steam.  We went to a fine jazz club hoping to have some good drinks and take in all the sounds and sights.

Maybe some background to set the stage on how we got to a jazz club.  You see, Syd is my Mistress and she has a new lover named Griffin.  While Griffin is from out of town, he instructed me to take Syd to this club on this night.  We confide a lot in him and he knew we needed to have a release from the week as well.  He also knows of our love for one another and our love of the cuckold lifestyle we had just begun about 3 months ago.

For the last month or so, Griffin has been communicating with us, both of us, through emails and online chat.  In a month, Syd has gone from thinking black and white men were the same and black men held no special attraction for her to where now she freely calls herself Griffin's hotwife and has told me she thinks she may have a special allure to black men.

He has a way of speaking to both of us that makes us want to listen to him.  In fact, we both refer to him as Master and I only refer to him as either Master or Sir.  Syd of course has special names for him and calls him by his first name.  There is a closeness shared by them that on one hand is so threatening to me but on the other, because I trust him, I feel very excited erotically by this closeness.

He has sent us pictures of him and we have sent him pictures of us.  He is very handsome, very fit, very strong, very hung, and very dominant.  Oh, did I mention he was hung and dominant?  Yes, a deadly combination for us cuckolds and certainly a magnet for the metallic cuckoldresses.

So, there we were at this jazz club and since we have been here a couple times before as Master Griffin directed, we knew we would be running into our fair share of black men.  It wasn't long after we sat down at a table when a waiter approached us.

The waiter, as he pointed towards the end of the bar, said to us, "Excuse me, that man over at the bar asked for you to join him."  We both looked and couldn't see very well but clearly this man was big and black and dressed very nicely.  As Syd and I both got up, the waiter put his hand on my shoulder and said, "He specifically said for you to wait here and wait for his instructions."  A pit hit my stomach like a freight train.  I looked at Syd with pleading eyes.  She looked at me and said, "It's okay honey, let me go meet him.  I'll be back soon and tell you all about it."

I watched her walk towards him in the outfit Master Griffin had picked out for her online.  We just bought it last week and had so much fun picking it out.  I couldn't wait to take her out in it and show her off.  Syd looked so sexy in her see through blouse, not slutty see through, but elegant see through, and you could see her beautiful lace bra underneath. The skirt she had on was probably the shortest I have ever seen her wear.  And this night, Master Griffin encouraged her not to wear panties.  And, she didn't.  This was another first.  So, watching her walk towards this guy, all kinds of things were racing through my mind.  "Man, she looks so sexy."  "Look at those legs."  Part of me was so excited and wanted him to look at her and know he wanted to have her, to need her, and part of me got extremely scared that everything was changing.  "How could he resist her?"  He looked like a stud, "Was she going to feel a stirring inside her when she got closer to him, close enough to see his face."

The next thing I saw I couldn't believe.  He stood up to greet her and held out his hand to her and she shook it and then all of a sudden she jumped up practically into his arms and had both arms around his neck as if she had known him before.

Everyone else saw a couple together,
I saw this in my imagination.

The chemistry was really electric between them, I could see that.   Anyone in the whole club could see that.  She was drawn to him and he was clearly drawn to her.  He sat down in his stool and she stood by him with her arm on his shoulder.  Her back was to me so I couldn't see much but the body language had me with a full erection and I could hardly contain myself.  Every once and a while she would look over to me and wave as if to say, "I'm okay honey."

I thought to myself, I should go up there and introduce myself, the suspense was killing me.  But I remembered, he said to stay here in my seat until he gave further directions.  Part of me said, fuck it, I am going up, that is my wife up there.  Part of me said, stay here, he wants that and she probably wants it too or she would have motioned for me to come over.

I couldn't keep my eyes off them, but tried so hard not to make it look like I was looking.  If anyone was watching, I am sure they knew what just happened.  My wife is at the bar talking to this black guy and I am here waiting.  If people didn't know, by now I knew the wait staff knew.  The waiter most assuredly had told his cohorts about what was happening.

Then, Syd turned around and he got up and they both started walking towards me.  My already racing heart sped up and I couldn't even think.  If you asked me right now, okay what were you thinking?  I would have to answer, "I don't know."  It was a combination of utter fear and anticipatory excitement, the kind of feeling you might experience at the very top of a roller coaster, the tallest roller coaster in the world.

I mean, they looked so hot together and as he got closer I could tell he was a fine looking guy.  And the closer he got, he began to look a bit familiar.  My mind began racing through my contacts list.  Work? No.  Neighborhood? No.  Gym? No.  Church? No.  Well, they were on me in no time and I didn't need to ask anymore, I was going to find out.

Then, Syd approached me and said, "Honey, do you know who this is?  I shook my head and said no, but in the back of my head I knew.  And her next words confirmed it.  "Honey, meet Master Griffin.  Griffin, this is Christian."

A flood of emotions ran through me, pins, needles, warm water, puffy blankets, cold water, you name it, it went through me.  We both reached out our hands and shook.  Of course, I took note at just how strong his hand was and how big.  It seemed to envelop mine.  And yet, while I know he could have probably hurt me, he didn't.  You know how thoughts run through your mind a million miles a second, in that period of time I'm not sure what was said but I said to myself, "Geez he didn't kill me with his shake...Is he strong?...Am I stronger than him?...No, I don't think so...He could have really squeezed to hurt me....But he didn't...You see I thought I could trust him just like I thought during all of our chats and emails over the past month...Shit, he's better looking in person...Bigger than I thought...Better looking than I thought too...Shit, what am I saying?...Pay attention!  Your rambling.  And then, I came out of my trance to say, "It is really nice to finally meet you."  He just smiled because obviously he had already said something to me.  And he smiled at Syd and she smiled back as if he was saying to her, "See, I told you."

He motioned for Syd to sit down at the table opposite me and he took the chair next to her.  All the nonverbals were clear, she was with him now.  I just sat down opposite them.  He put his arm around her and her hand was on his leg.  We talked about how surprised we were to see him; after all we thought he was half a world away.  He told us he wanted to surprise us and looked forward to our time together.

Look if you want to know everything that was said, I haven't a clue.  My mind was racing.  They were smiling together, I was smiling, we were all laughing together, and we were having fun.  This lasted probably a good hour; I mean we were just enjoying ourselves like three old friends.  Now, it was readily apparent they were a couple and when my mind was able to grasp onto that thought, I got hard immediately, but then I would get lost in our conversation.  I just know I felt on edge, like you feel on an interview with someone who you really want to impress.  I wanted him to like me.  I wanted him to like her.  Okay, I wanted him to want her which he clearly did and it was clear she wanted him.

He then leaned towards me and said in a low voice, "Look, go on up to the bar and have a seat.  We are going to get more acquainted here and dance and I'll let you know what happens next."  I quickly looked at Syd and she quickly smiled a smile which said, "It's ok."  I replied, "Okay."  And he quickly shot back, "Wait, okay what?  I knew the response as if I knew my name, I then gave him the proper response, "Yes, Sir."  He said, "Good boy, now go" and waved me off to the bar.

From the bar, I tried to watch them as much as I could.  At times they would be talking so seriously and at times would laugh together.  I could tell they were feeling closer.  Syd was touching him more and I am sure he was touching her.  I wasn't sure at this point if he felt under her skirt but I suspected.

Then, they got up to dance.  If you could have seen them, it was a sight to behold.  Her so pretty, so sexy, so lovely, and him like a god holding her in his arms.  They danced closely, very close, like lover close and I felt my first real tinge of cuckold angst.  It looked like she was pressing against his crotch, I mean, who could blame her.  Every chick in the place wanted to.  And while I felt a bit of jealousy with Syd out there with him, I also felt very proud.  I knew this is what she deserved.  This is why I offered to engage in a female led marriage after 20 years, why I gave her a key to my chastity device, why I offered to enter into a cuckold lifestyle so that she could experience sexual fulfillment...to feel fully a woman...to feel sexual again after having children.  She looked happy and that brought a certain uneasy happiness to me, but I was happy nonetheless.

They went back to the table and I saw the waiter approach them.  He then came directly to me and said, "Hi, your wife's lover told me to tell you to go and get them a hotel room at the Hyatt across the street.  He said to do that and come back here when you're done to see him upon your return."

The waiter could see the uneasiness in my face.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.  And, I definitely couldn't believe it was someone else telling me about my wife and her lover and that I was supposed to get THEM a room.  At once it was excruciatingly humiliating and over-the-top erotic.

When I turned around to get the bartender to pay my bill, the waiter stopped me and said, "Oh yeah, he also said to keep your tab open so they could drink more.  He said you wouldn't mind."  I smiled at the waiter for he and I both knew I was going to acquiesce.

So there I was, standing at a bar looking at my wife with another man, not just any man, but Master Griffin no less.  When I first approached Syd about all this, she didn't know what cuckold meant.  And, now, I was not only her slave, but by association, his slave, and I was on my way to get a room for them both.

No man should have to feel the feelings I went through as I walked to the hotel.  It was crazy.  Really?  I am going to go get them a room?  Do I really know him?  Is this what I want?  Is this what she wants?  Once I asked this, I knew this IS what she wanted and so then I knew it was what I wanted and it made the whole walk go more smoothly.

Getting the room and asking for a king bed and even wanting it to be the perfect room for them was all a blur.  The next thing I knew I had the 3 key cards I asked for and was on my way back to the club.

As I entered the club, I noticed I was completely hard, I tried not to be but I just couldn't contain myself.  I walked in and saw them immediately at the table and walked up to them.  As soon as I got there, Master Griffin said to me, "Did you do as I instructed?"  I replied, "Yes, Sir.  The room is all ready."  He then said, "Good boy."  Syd leaned into him and said, "See, I told you, isn't he such a good little boy."  The word little at this point drove right into my chest almost causing shortness of breath.  I knew what she meant and he knew what she meant.

He then said to her, "You know, I think his dicklet is hard.  He must like all of this.  You think?"  Syd smiled and said, "Don't worry, he loves it all, don't you honey?"  I nodded and smiled meekly and they rose and he said, "Go ahead, pay the bill and your wife and I will meet you outside."

The way he said, "Your wife and I" as if to say, "Your wife, but my lover" made such an impression on me.  I quickly paid the bill and on my way out of the club I passed the waiter and he just smiled at me.  I smiled back.  And, the pit in my stomach just grew.

I met them outside where he was holding her hand as if they had been together for years.  Right in front of people going into the club, he said, "Good boy, let's go to the hotel."  I walked kind of with them but then kind of behind them but then wanted so badly to walk right alongside Syd.  I wanted to hold her hand.  I got beside her and she did reach out and held my hand and squeezed it.  But then let go.  It meant a lot.  It was a small gesture but it told me that she loved me and would always love me but wanted Master Griffin so badly right now in a sexual way and that everything would be alright.  That's a lot to say in a touch of the hand.  I so hoped I read that right.

It seemed like a fortnight to get to the room.  I opened the door for them as if I was the bellboy and they both thanked me.  When we got inside, Master Griffin was holding her in his arms and looked at me and said, "Are you sure you want this?"  I know he was asking, "Are you sure you want this because after tonight your wife will be forever changed."

I nodded and said, "Yes."  He just had to look at me and I knew what I did wrong.  I re-said it, "Yes, Sir."  He smiled knowingly and so did Syd.

He then told me to come over to them and "begin undressing your wife for me."  After I had her clothes off, he told me to "go and sit down and be a good little boy while we get to know one another better."  From there, all I can say it was a Master and his lover and in this case his lover was my wife.  He kissed her so passionately so deeply.  The contrasts in their skin tones made a mark on my thoughts and an impact on my dick.  Syd was so captivated by him, so taken by his dominance.  I truly believe she would have done anything he asked at that point.  Maybe, so would have I.  He looked over at me and told me "to go down to the lobby and buy them some water.  He told me not to come back "for at least an hour."

Inside this was killing me.  I didn't want to leave.  I wanted to watch, so badly.  But, I knew my submissive nature would succumb to his dominance.  I went and got water and waited exactly 60 minutes.  There was a nanosecond between 60 seconds and my knock on the door.  He answered it wearing a robe and said, "Come on in cuck.  I have a present for you."  Looking at him I realized how fortunate we were to be in his presence, how masterful he was, how dominant he was, how in total control he was, and how submissive I felt in front of him.  I so wanted to see him naked - I wished he didn't have his robe on.  I walked into the room and Syd looked so disheveled, yet so divine, so beautiful, so pleased, so full of bliss.

He told me, "Look, you are going to get your present and leave.  You understand?"  I nodded, "Yes, Sir."  "You will spend more time with us tomorrow, but tonight we need more time together alone.  Do you understand?"  I again nodded, "Yes, Sir."  "Do you want your present?" he asked.  I nodded, "Yes, Sir."  He went on, "Good, first go over and give your wife a hug and kiss, she deserves it.  And so do you for being such a good boy."  I hugged Syd and kissed her and we did it with such passion and acceptance, it was such a beautiful thing.  I could tell by her body manners that all was okay and even more than okay, terrifically exquisite and the thought of Syd being happy generally gives me a hard on and I was definitely hard - and joyful.

"Now get under that sweet slutty wife of yours." And, as Syd got on all fours, I got under her in a 69 position.  I was looking up at her pussy, her luscious pussy that looked very gaping from this vantage point.  I could only imagine what they had been doing in the past hour.  Her labia were very swollen and there were marks on her ass where he no doubt had slapped her - which she loves!

I looked up and soon Master Griffin came into view.  His body was striking, even upside down.  Looking up, he was looking down on me and all I can remember thinking was just how perfect his body was.  That I was this close to him and Syd made me feel very special and I just wanted to please them in whatever way I could.  I just didn't want to fuck up at this point.  You know?

He then declared, "You are now going to see what it means to fuck, and how your wife deserves to be fucked.  And, his cock, yes this was a cock, I mean, I may never call anyone else's penis a cock again it was so worthy of being called a cock.  So, his cock was right there about 6" away from me, very hard, very long, very thick.  This was something I had fantasized about for so long and now it was coming true.  And, I wasn't exactly sure I wanted to see it but I also knew there was no turning back now.  Soon, he looked down on me and said, "Take hold of me and guide me into your wife's pussy."   I reached up and wasn't prepared for what I felt.  His cock was heavy.  Solid.  I never felt anything like it.  As soon as I grabbed it, a charge went through me like I can't describe.

Master Griffin told me to just hold it and then addressed Syd.  "Open up his zipper and tell me if you think he likes this."  A thought of "Oh shit" went through my brain because I knew what Syd would find.  She grabbed my penis and said, "Yes Griffin, I think he is enjoying all of this.  I don't think his hard penis would lie!"

Before I knew it he was starting to position himself at the opening of her pussy and I knew it was time for me to guide.  I placed his mushroom like head near the entrance of her pussy and rubbed it around getting it wet with all of her juices which were flowing.  He then moved his hips forward and just the head of his giant cock went inside her.  I'm telling you, the size of his cock made me a little worried for her even though I knew anatomically I didn't need to be worried.

Syd let out a soft purr and I looked at her and could only see her head lean back.  She was undoubtedly excited.  And Master Griffin began to fuck her with just about 4" of his cock.  I could tell from her reaction he was hitting her g spot and I also knew from history it wouldn't be long for her to explode.  He was thrusting inside her in an upward motion hitting her right where she needed it, and she was moaning, "Please don't stop.  Oh, please don't stop."  Within a couple minutes she came in a full body orgasm that squirted her love juices all over me making my shirt wet in a torrent I didn't think would stop.

He then continued and brought her to another orgasm again she squirted all over me.  She looked back at me and said, "Oh honey, thank you so much for making all this happen.  You have made me so happy.  I love you so much!  I love Griffin too.  I love his cock!  And, I love how he makes me feel!!"

Soon, Master Griffin was thrusting almost his entire cock inside her hitting her in places I knew I could never reach with my penis.  He was thrusting harder and faster now and she came again in a stunning orgasm which left her full weight on my body and her pussy right at my face.  For a moment, his balls were in my face until she lifted her body again and he began fucking her more fully.  He told me that I would soon have my present, something he said "You have longed for many years."

And it seemed like an hour, I don't know how long it was, but soon I could tell the signs of Master Griffin beginning to reach climax.  He was now pounding Syd's pussy and she was unmistakably in ecstasy.   I lost count of the number of orgasms she had and I couldn't believe his stamina.  He asked her where she wanted him to cum, and she quickly replied, "Please cum inside my pussy.  I want to feel your cum inside me.  Please Master."  Eventfully, even he couldn't hold out any more and I watched as he thrust into her and did what no man besides me had done in 20 years and he came inside her pussy.  He came with such ferocity, I couldn't believe it.  It was truly amazing to see.  Immediately I knew and realized just how different Alpha and beta males are.  He buried his cum deep inside her and she screamed with such rapture and it seemed all so surreal to me.

With his cock still inside her, he looked down at me and smiled and said, "You loved that didn't you?"  I could just nod and say, "Yes Master."  He then said, "I am going to pull out and then you will have your present.  It comes with a white bow!"  He continued, "And, I expect you to treat my cum with the kind of reverence it deserves.   Don't waste one drop."  And then he began to pull out.  I didn't even have time to think.  All I could think was I better not let any of his cum hit the bed and I opened my mouth like a baby bird awaiting its first meal.  His cock seemed to take forever to come out of Syd's pussy but finally it did and his heavy cock swung downward and cum fell off the end of his cock and simultaneously fell from Syd's now gaping pussy.  Master Griffin held her pussy open and let more of his cum fall out and drop into my open mouth.  As some more would fall into my mouth, he would say, "Good boy.  Don't swallow, yet."  He made sure every last drop of cum inside Syd was now deposited in my mouth and then squeezed his cock so the last drop of cum would exit his mammoth manhood.  He then rubbed his cock on my cheeks to move any cum that ended up there into my mouth.

He then instructed Syd to turn around.  I could now see her facing me for the first time and our eyes met.  I felt so submissive, so turned on, so controlled by Master Griffin.  Again, I didn't have time to think and he told me, "Swallow.  All of it.  Now."  I did as he instructed.  He then told Syd to kiss me and tell me what a good boy I was.  She leaned down and kissed me and we kissed with a fervent passion we hadn't felt maybe ever.

Master Griffin then grabbed me, looked at me, and said, "Okay slave, go home and rest.  We have a big day tomorrow.  Go straight home and await my call in the morning.  My hotwife and I are going to have some nasty sex and if you are lucky, we may tell you about it tomorrow.  Now be a good boy, kiss your wife, and we will see you tomorrow."

Our Very First Bull

Our very first meeting with a prospective bull is something I have never talked about on here.  It was with a guy we will refer to as Bull J or J.  We met Bull J literally as we came out of the womb.  It is only by sheer luck and grace that we fell into his life and he fell into ours. 

And, because of how he treated us and taught us and explored with us all with no judgments and pure curiosity, Bull J will always have a special place in our hearts. 

This is Bull J's mantra and it's a LOT of fun!

He is like no other man I have ever met.  He is at once the most dominant man you will come across and the most caring and submissive man.  I mean that in only the most positive light.  He seeks our pleasure.  He also get s his from pushing our limits and comfort zones.  Be sure, when we are all together, there is no doubt WHO is in control.  It is never really even talked about.  He never lords it over me nor boasts about it.  In fact, he shows great care for me.  It is hard to describe.  In return, I would run in front of a train to save him.  He engenders that kind of commitment because I know he too is committed - to us.  The highest praise I can give J is that I trust him, and I don't say that lightly. 

And, once you have trust, real trust, the fun can really begin.  With that security, there is nothing to fear.  I feel I can truly look after Syd's needs and his needs because I know my needs will also be looked after.  It is not something I expect, it is something I just know will happen.

Notice I am not using the usual caps for Dom and lower case for subs.  That is because that is how Bull J would like it.  He doesn't see our triad in labels but in connections.  Whenever I would ask him something like, "So, do you see yourself as a dominant or bull or master or..."  He would respond something like, "Dude, you read too much.  I'm J."  That's his way of saying we aren't this or that, we are just people.  We are sexual beings.  And, we will play together and have fun. 

When I began this journey I always knew Syd had a dominant streak.  I also knew that she could experience more sexually than I was providing her.  When we met with J the first time, I think he quickly surmised just how new to all this we were.  It was during this first session I learned about the g spot.  After 48 years living, it was waaaaaaaaay overdue, just ask Syd.

He had his fingers inside her and said, "Come over here and look at this."  And he proceeded to give me an in person teaching on the g spot and how to bring a woman to a squirting orgasm.  Syd probably felt like some medical specimen, but he knew just how important it was for us as a couple.  I didn't know.  He knew and was willing to share with me to make our marriage better.

And since that point, I have been voraciously digesting any piece of information I can get my hands on about the female orgasm - the g spot, the a spot, I was in a whole new world and a whole new playground.  And, Syd has loved everything I have tried on her.  I learned from Bull J to communicate to Syd as I was doing it, "How does this feel?  Am I hitting the right spot?  Where do you want me to move to?"  And, of course, Syd LOVES it!!!  She always mentions something like, "Ah, I see you have been doing some research.  Keep it up!"

J brought a certain freedom to our lovemaking that wasn't present before.  I remember the first time after our first meeting with Bull J that Syd and I had sex and she had her period.  Blood was everywhere.  Before J, I would have run off to the bathroom to get a towel to "clean up."  This time, I reveled in it, told Syd how great it was to feel her blood on me and I even wiped it on my body just wanting to feel all of it.  It turned from a dirty unhealthy thing for us to a dirty NASTY good thing for us all with a change of attitude.  And, I learned that from him.

Ok, I know my posts tend to be long, and S always reminds me of that.

So, there will be more about J later.  But, I want you all to know, we are closer as a couple because of him.

Fear and think of me OR Love and think of others?

i hope this picture illustrates how i feel about relationships in general and cuckold relationships in particular.

Which one will you choose?

Baby

Anyone reading this seeing the title "Baby" might set their minds to wandering.  Wandering down the path of an intense, perhaps the most intense aspect of cuckoldry.  And, without saying it, i know you know what i mean.

This is something i would say every cuckold at one point or another has fantasized about.  When they thought about it, it lit their passions and struck at their very core.  Would their wife or wouldn't they, I mean REALLY?  Would they??

i was recently faced with just this question and the answer startled me.

It all started innocently enough.  S and i were playing and i called her "Baby."  As in, "oh Baby, You like how that feels?"  In 20 years of marriage, i don't think i ever called Her "Baby."  That was until about 2 months ago when all this started.  We met S's bull.  We will call him J.  i will have to write an entire post or more about Bull J.  But one of the things i learned from him was how he called S "Baby" and how She responded to it.  i liked it.  i liked the name, loved the closeness it encapsulated.  So, i too took to calling Her "Baby" especially during play time and sometimes just in normal conversation.

i liked the intimacy of which it spoke even though i admit i did feel a bit uneasy about using it.  Why?  It seemed every time i heard it elsewhere, it was from some dominant who was saying it to S whether in person or texting or chatting online.  Unbeknownst to me, this must be a favorite pet name of dominant's for their ladies.

i admit i liked using it, but it never quite rolled off my tongue naturally.

So, again, there we were, in the middle of play, and there i was calling S "Baby" in a sexual context.

She stopped everything, cold.

Right there in the middle.

She was so wet.

i was so hard.

And, She took my face into Her dominant hands and looked me straight in the eyes.

What She said next would totally rock my world.

"Listen," She continued, "you are never to call Me that again.  I never want to hear you call Me that name anymore.  That name is reserved for dominant bulls to call Me (i.e., you are not a dominant).  Do you understand?"

i replied meekly, "Yes, Mistress, i understand."

That was it, the end of me using the name "Baby" with S.  i am quite sure it will never happen again.  i have thought about using the term again since but knew it just wasn't right.  And, every time i think about using it, which is fairly often at this point, it is an internal act of submission to not use it and it makes me feel very good inside but also gives me the slightest pit in my stomach.  Things have changed.  Things will change.  i wonder what will be the next thing i tell you about that i cannot do because it would be inappropriate for a submissive cuckold husband to do with his Wife.  Stay tuned!

PS.  So, in the beginning of this post, the question was whether or not i would be able to call her "Baby."  i don't know what YOU were thinking!!!

Multifacetedmoi.com - Female Centric Relationship and Contemporary Cuckoldry

i began my journey towards chastity and a female led relationship years ago.  Mostly as voyeur and fantasist, i never thought my fantasies could become reality with my Wife.

Chastity and a cuckold marriage always seemed so unattainable to me.  i thought it would be unattainable because any sites i saw on the matter, always included a heavy dose of porn and crazy talk and if i did garner the courage to show my wife those websites, i was sure she would dismiss the idea out of hand because of the material.

So, i knew i probably had one chance at this and thankfully (!) i waited.  Because, after i found Ms. M’s website (multifacetedmoi.com), i knew i had struck gold.  Her delivery of the subject was mature and balanced and sane.  She explains chastity in a way that grabbed me hook, line, and sinker.  And, after reading every morsel i could find on her site, i set up an appointment to speak with her and to gain some coaching.  Well, within one week i was in a cb-6000s with S's full support and after my Wife read Ms. M.’s site, She was even more thrilled to make this a part of our marriage.

This idea was fantasy for a number of years.  It was my contacting Ms. M. that turned it from fantasy to reality.  My mind is still spinning from the changes that are being played out in our marriage.

So, i know my introduction to cuckoldry found its genesis in Luvr's website, cuckoldmarriage.info, and it was there i learned about cuckoldry, chastity, and a female led marriage.  It was M's site, multifacetedmoi.com, that turned that all around for me in understanding that the female led marriage would have to come first.  She created the term of the The FCR Concept^TM or Female Centric Relationship.  She also created a phrase Contemporary Cuckoldry^TM.  She defines Contemporary Cuckoldry^TM as "a completely consensual, female-centric relationship design. It is one of many relationship designs that can be improved and enhanced by applying The FCR Concept^TM."  She adds, "Contemporary Cuckoldry^TM is not hotwifing, sissification, degradation, or manipulating one's partner into doing what you want to feed into a self-gratifying fetish.  It is not "implanting" ideas in someone's head to get them to cuckold you. It is not infidelity or deceiving your partner."

M has been a terrific mentor for both S and me.  And now that we are fully engaged in a female led marriage and living the cuckoldry lifestyle, S find great stimulation from reading Luvr's site.  In fact, he is one of her favorite writers.

So it has come full circle, these two sites without the guidance of Luvr and M, we would not be where we are in our marriage which is to say happier than we have ever been and having the best sex of our lives!

If you are serious about wanting to live a female led relationship and a cuckold lifestyle, you HAVE to go to these two sites:

• cuckoldmarriage.info
• multifacetedmoi.com

This is where the reality of the lifestyles will happen for you.  The rest is fantasy.

husband-lover-best friend-slave, right?

Today, S and i were talking about things and it led into a discussion of our roles.  i offered that i saw myself as her husband, lover, best friend and slave.  i added that i saw it kind of in that order.  i was feeling very good about including "slave" in the list, wondering almost if She saw it the same way.

She looked at me kind of quizzically as if to say, really?

Inside, i was wondering if i had gone too far.

She looked me straight in the eye and said, "Hun, things have changed.  Your order is all wrong.  You are my slave first.  The rest come after that for sure.  You understand that, right?"

This was much more of a statement to me than a question, and i knew it.  Blood immediately rushed to my dick and all i could say was, "Yes, Mistress."

And, She added, "And just so you know, I don't view this as some role for some scene or game, this is the way we are living now."

Thankful for Mistress

Dear Mistress,

It has been a smidgen over two months that i proposed to You again.  O/our 20th anniversary is one W/we will not soon forget!

While the readers are still being brought up to date as to O/our relationship, i thought it was time for a letter of thanksgiving.

Your openness and zeal for undertaking new endeavors is astonishing.  Two months ago You didn't know what the word "cuckoldry" meant.  Chastity was something You thought was long lost to the Victorian era.  And, a female led marriage meant something very different and lacked the intensity and good feelings You feel about it today.

i know there are times when W/we get caught up in the "lifestyle" and think maybe W/we should be doing something one way or another.  Sometimes i feel that maybe as Your slave i should be more advanced than i am.  Maybe You feel as my Mistress You should have developed some skill more proficiently than You have.   And all the while, for me, i am looking into the future and gauging my current status versus someone else's position.  It is like how W/we discuss the pitfall of comparing O/our marriage versus how the neighbors portray their marriage.  Or worse, comparing O/ourselves to the image people put on Facebook, etc.

i want You to know that i have never been happier in all my life.  You are a spectacular Mistress.  i can't imagine any wife progressing like You have to this point.  You have grown with such determination and grace and i am the luckiest man on the planet.  Your dominance is so much more on the surface than two months ago, so readily seen by me, so clear that it is a force unto which i want to submit.

i have to remember that W/we are at such a precious time in our relationship.  i know W/we will look back on this time in a couple years and say, "Oh, W/we were so young then in the lifestyle, wasn't that a fun time?!"  Well, i want to make sure i am appreciating every moment because W/we are having so much fun right now.  W/we could read a cuckold blog from now until 10 years from now and W/we will never find out what is right for us.  Only W/we know that.  And, what made U/us successful in 20 years of marriage will help U/us be successful in the next 20 years.  Communicating and expressing O/our feelings has been the hallmark of O/our marriage.  W/we both do it well and W/we both know W/we have a safe and secure L/lover to express them to.

So, even though W/we may screw up along the way, in the end, it will just be You and me.  That is O/our foundation and that will never change.  i love You and i love You even more for trying!  i love You for all the effort You put into being my Mistress, my Wife, my Best Friend, and my Lover.  You are my rock and i adore and worship You!

Obediently and in Love,  
Your slaveboy

CuckoldMarriage.info - site of my beginning

Here is a little background on how i came to wanting to experience a female led marriage, chastity, and cuckoldry.  One of my earliest introductions to this lifestyle was through a website named www.cuckoldmarriage.info. 

i have been following it for years.  The creator, his name is Luvr on the site, is a very insightful and caring guy who is a Dominant in the truest sense of the word.  He describes the website as, "CuckoldMarriage.Info was first launched as fuckmyslutbride.com in 1996 and was the first site online dedicated to the cuckold marriage lifestyle and associated aspects of BDSM."

Without this site, i would not be in a female led marriage, in chastity or certainly a cuckold today - no question.  Luvr and His site have led me in this journey and challenged me to go where i never thought i could on my own.  i was right, i know i couldn't have done this all on my own - but, i had so much behind me in His support and the support of His website.

This site first served as a fantasy repository for me.  The articles and guides are clearly meant to lead a couple into the cuckold lifestyle and not meant as some porn site.  This is serious business to Luvr and He takes his craft very seriously.  If you read just one article, you will see how must time and energy He pours into His work.

He has a terrific step-by-step introduction into the cuckolding lifestyle that is by far the best on the net.  He begins, "Cuckolding takes what is perceived as the largest threat to a marriage and turns it into something that binds a couple closer together."

This is something that always intrigued me about Luvr's site.  It always put out there that our marriage would be better for the cuckolding experience.  At times i believed that, at times i didn't.  i know that what i read on Luvr's site both excited me and scared the shit out of me.  i would tell Him so.  And, He would always be there to reassure me and guide me through the feelings i was experiencing.

To this day, there are sections of His site that challenge me and i think to myself  "There is no way i could do that."  Well, in this lifestyle and with people like Luvr at your back, i have learned to never say never.

Now, i totally understand what He means when He says our marriage will be stronger.  i would also add, and i think He would agree, that while cuckoldry will strengthen the healthy marriage, if your marriage is in a weakened state, cuckoldry will probably push it over the cliff.  This lifestyle is not for the faint of heart as i am experiencing. 

So, whether you are new to the term cuckoldry or have been jacking off to it for years, if you truly want this lifestyle to become a reality in your marriage, this site is required reading for both you and spouse or your significant other.

There are 2 sites i put into this category of required reading.  More about the second site in my next post.